Lenne

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2017-10-25 07:30:29 (UTC)

Morning, nerves and romantic mood

Hey, look here, it is nearly the end of October! Are you ready for the official Winter? It is coming day after day, it is in the air already. We in Moscow have about 0 degrees Celsius since the end of the last week. And I really think that for Friday’s exam I have to wear something of a winter-warmth, otherwise I’ll die of cold before even try.
The exam… it is so soon. And I’m nervous. I am really afraid that till that moment without training I’ll forget everything I know. I know I can make it if I’ll be calm, just put some self-control on and I’ll pass the exam. I’m so nervous, I don’t want this day to come.
Nevertheless I still have two days before it and I guess I’ll go strait home right after the end of working day on both. I need to have good rest and long sleeps to be on the track. The only thing I will do today’s evening will be visiting drug store to buy some more pills. No, I don’t take anything strong or any kind of real mood stabilizers. Those pills are something that is recommended to take from time to time as a preventive measure in today’s life, I was recommended to take it by my therapist: to help my heart, vessels and brain. It is more actual now – when I have stress situation. And it is autumn – my body need some help to go through it. And it is helping! Just one week of taking it have passed and I can feel the result: I’m waking up much easier, I’m not so tired by the end of the day, and at home I have enough strength and even will not to fall down to the bed die as soon as I’m home – I do nothing, but have rest and feel good and easy. So it became much easier to go anywhere for my own business after work. So, it is really helping. And this week I try to keep control of my meals – week end was fat and fried, now I’m trying to be somewhere near right road.
Flowers that were presented me for my Birthday are gone. But I saved some tops and buds. I have nice box I put it to. I did something alike last year and saved leaves of the rose in a small bottle. It is quite nice looking and reminds me of those people presented it to me and their beautiful words, it reminds me that someone likes me and my way of working, doing and being. It reminds me that I’m not alone even if those people are gone from my life and that guy, who gave me that rose preferred just to disappear. Oh, it is nostalgia all over again but in a different way. A romantic one.
Hope this morning is good to you too. Thank you for reading and have a nice day!




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