Bipolar Disorder - Winning the War

Winning the War
2011-01-01 00:00:00 (UTC)

Unhappy New Year

We went out to my friend Max's house for New Years Eve. It was a good time. My dad drank with the other dads, I got to hangout with all my friends from school who were there, also mostly just guys. I wanted to enjoy my time there because the past few days had been stressful. My boyfriend kept talking about how he can't wait to see what the future holds for us and that were so in love. I don't know if I love him but I keep saying it back. I don't know what to do about tonight. I don't want to see him but he is mad that I won't be able to kiss him on New Years Eve. I haven't seen him since before Christmas.
My friend Blake was at the party, he asked if I wanted a glass of champagne. I said yes thinking he was joking and because I would've said yes to anything he said (he was my biggest crush all through middle school but he kept dating my friends). To my surprise he actually got a small glass of champagne. So when the ball dropped and midnight came around, I drank for the first time.




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