Diary of Kate
2017-10-22 18:58:05 (UTC)

Sunday evening

I hate Sundays. It always made me feel nervous that it's the end of the weekend and I have to start the week again. When I'm at home I feel safe. Nothing bad can happen to me there. I can be myself, I can do whatever I want to, I don't have to answer any questions. I can just simply put on my headphones and enjoy the music. But it's not the way to live. And every time the Monday comes I know that this fear will pass as soon as I start getting ready in the morning. When I'm doing something my mind is distracted so I don't overthink. Yup, that's my problem. I overthink every single thing. And then I'm getting anxious even more. But I have no idea how to stop it.

I just finished watching 'Still Alice'. Amazing movie but also very, very sad. I don't remember last time I cried during a movie but today I cried several times. Heartbreaking. If you haven't seen it yet then you definitely should.

I think I'll finish here. Wish me a good luck with upcoming week.