Diary of Kate
2017-10-21 23:25:48 (UTC)

Weekend thoughts...

So cool to have 3 free days.. I needed it. I like my college and I like classes but it makes me so tired and I don't know what to do about it. I'm trying to get as much sleep as I possibly can but it's hard to get everything done on time.
For the past 3 or 4 days I've been only eating one sandwich a day and I felt so good, so skinny...and today I ruined it. Now I feel fat and disgusting. That's the thing with me - I either eat nothing all day or I eat too much. I really want to stop eating. I finally want someone to love me.
I'm so tired of being alone. I have some friends but it's not the same. I want to feel that I'm enough. Plus, I'm curious if anybody would even notice that I stopped eating and got thinner. Does it count as eating disorder ?
And I did cut myself last night. It always helped but not this time. My sould is tired...