Lenne

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2017-10-09 07:30:14 (UTC)

Bloody woman secret...

This post is not for man or faint-hearted. Some will wrinkle nose and say? That this theme is not the one to mention anywhere public. But first of all, this is diary and it’s role is to keep main things and events happening is someone’s life. Second, is that it is MY diary and I can write anything here. And third is that the process is natural…
Yesterday menstruation started. First in one year and a half. You can’t imagine my happiness. I wished for it for so long.
It started when I lost some weight by being stressed of long and hopeless searching for a job and then a new stress of new job, better to say new colleagues who never respected me and my nerves. One day it doubled through a month… and then gone. Absolutely.
I had plenty of time to wait, run for doctors, taking pills, wait again, give up, get all the weight back again and take more pills. And now it is here. I’m sitting on it, literally. And today I can remember it all. I feel fat, dirty, my hands are shacking, so is the whole body… I hope that means that it is not just like open the way out, but hormones are working too. I hope it so much, really. Now I should keep it.
It is even funny how much thing are happening all around. I failed the exam, had big-bang in my head, get some peace inside from one side, caught flew, this week the Friday is 13th, new Tuesday is my 27th Birth Day and then Halloween is coming. It is October – the middle of autumn. And then November will come and we will start our preparations for New Year and Christmas. And I will prepare for my trip to Finland. And for now I have my job, classes of driving, teeth and woman questions. Today I feel not so sure about everything: about my decision and strength to go through it all… Well, I have the whole day ahead to change it…




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