Ren

Journeytobehappy
2017-09-19 02:22:33 (UTC)

Never had a friend like Maynard

I'm trying to focus on the positive side of my life so i won't be so sad.

All those years of trying to fit in, i thought i won't be able to find a friend who doesn't make me feel like an outsider outside. I met good friends, not gonna say they aren't but i've always been so different and i wanted to connect to someone so bad. But Maynard, Maynard understands me. I've never felt so secure to anyone else other than my ex gf than to him.
God, i don't find it that surprising we're both suicidal.lol
We're both so effed up. I only connect to crazy people. But he's the best thing i ever had for a friend.

Though i may add, Maynard isn't someone who was "pushed" outside. He's really popular. People try to talk to him but he just doesn't care much. He's depressed. Don't get it wrong, he's a really good person. I often ask if he doesn't craved for a sense of belongingness. He said no. I said i'm not sure if i'd envy that about him or not.
We usually spend our free time talking for hours and hours about life. About every nooks and cranny of life. Our unusual behaviour. How others are so fucked up too. All those talking gives me energy everytime.




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