Ren

Journeytobehappy
2017-09-11 15:00:53 (UTC)

You came back

Vincent came back, again. This makes me so happy. Yeah no. Who does he think he is? Even his friends are bothering me. It's so stressful so i decided to deactivate my account for 2 days.
How could he be so selfish and inconsiderate? Does he think so low of me?;( How could he do all those things and think he could still come back? Fucking bullshit.
So here i am again, it feels like i've been knock back a couple of step down. Worst is, i almost believe his lies again. He said, he can't stop loving me and i'm the one for him blahblahblah. God, that used to work before. God, i feel so stupid about everything from the beginning. He wasn't able to get to know his biological father, his stepfather beats and cheated on his mother. He cheated on his exes or the other way around. His friends are gold digger and womanizer. How could i think it'd be something different for me? How could i be so positive it'd be different for me when everything around him is so f*cked.
I'm really trying to make sense about everything here because my self esteem is being shaken up again. I just can't afford to feel worthless. Because i am not. I have fought tooth and nail to be who i am now. It wasn't an easy battle. And i'm not gonna let someone put that into waste. Not even the person that i love so much.




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