Ren

Journeytobehappy
2017-08-29 06:34:32 (UTC)

i need to make new friends

Nicka ask me to tell her bf jun to meet them at Mcdo when i get at dorm. Is this now a thing? She invites everyone except me? lol. It happened a few times that i'm starting to believe she doesn't want to hang out with me. don't want to think negatively but it's so crystal clear. Jun told me she's jealous of me for the reason that jun was slightly upset that i got back with Vincent. i think he was just being empathetic. Or maybe she doesn't want to be my friend.Okay. I don't want to get so sad about Nicka isolating me. Annie has not come to school for a few weeks now. I miss her. She's busy with her jobs as she can't take the midterm exam which was last week because she doesn't have money to pay for her tuition. Lyng, my bestfriend, is living with her boyfriend and i don't want to feel like a third party. She's also honestly being a pain in the ass to us who are close to her. She nags, she's demanding, if she doesn't get what she wants she'd get mad and raise her voice. it's stressing me out. So i don't wanna hang out with her. Maynard, i miss him but he's going through a rough time right now and wants to be alone. He almost took his own life. So yeah, noone's available and all day i get to hang out with my phone. just me and my phone. As you can see, we are all so effed in our own ways. I need new friends who aren't effed. I'm not abandoning my friends, i just need new one.I should probably work on myself so that i don't attract effed friends and perhaps a boyfriend, in the process honing my social skills which sucks.




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