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My heart in a knot
2017-06-30 21:22:43 (UTC)

3 jobs???

The good news is that things are finally starting to get off the ground for me. Tomorrow I start my part-time job that is only a few hours a week. I'll be training tomorrow for it and I am hoping to get to ask the person training me a bunch of questions about the flexibility of the job and how good it is. Hopefully that goes well.


Yesterday I had an interview for a job I thought I wanted because it seemed like a good entry level position to get into this company, which would be really beneficial. However the position that I applied and interviewed for doesn't pay much and it's a seasonal position which means that my hours will vary based on the season. Plus this job has no benefits. The interview itself went fairly well.... but there were some issues too with my communication skills and I was a bit nervous because I wasn't expecting to be interviewed with 3 people, which went down to 2 people. They all sat in front of me taking notes as I answered the questions, one of them looked really bored and I knew I wasn't doing a good job at letting my personality show, I tried to make up for it by telling little jokes but I didn't do so well because they only gave me half smiles in return. If anything it showed me that I really need to work on my interview skills. I honestly have no idea if they were seriously considering me after that interview, I think the biggest thing is that they couldn't tell how much I really wanted the job because during the end the lady really emphasized on ME calling HER instead of me waiting around to see if they would hire me or not...... well now I'm feeling guilty.

So today, at random, I get an email from a job that pays WELL and has BENEFITS! The lady wanted to set up an interview with me and couldn't reach me by phone because I had put that application in a long time ago and had a different number then. I was very surprised to be getting a call because a few weeks ago I got an email saying that I wasn't referred to the job so I had given up on it. Now I'm really stuck in something and I need to figure out what I'm going to do. The reality is that both jobs hold a level of prestige that could help me get where I want to be. But the job I already interviewed for pays less than I've made in 7 years, has no benefits, and is seasonal work. I actually think the job was really geared towards younger people but I was thinking the job was temporary. The other job that I have scheduled an interview for next week pays well for the work and has benefits, it does have less hours but I do think they just put down so few hours to not get people's hopes up about working full-time, it's 16 hours a week, the other job was 25 hours a week but paid less. The difference in pay is significant enough that it makes the second job more worth it.


So here's my dilemma.... my interview for the second job isn't until the 6th, I realized my mistake and I should have scheduled it for the 3rd but because I have to work my new job on the 3rd I decided to go for the 6th. The other job said that they might have a decision by the 3rd but it could take a week, but she told me to call and keep in touch.. but in my opinion what she really was saying is she wants to see how much I want that job. What I'm worried about is if they do offer me the job but I haven't even had my interview for the second job yet, if I accept the job then that would be like denying the other job, if I deny the job then I may end up with nothing at all if the other job doesn't accept me into that job. It seems naturally that I should accept the second job since it pays more but until I have an interview for it I won't know my chances of actually getting the job. Plus I feel guilty for interviewing for the first job and now possibly not accepting it if they offer me the job, but I know that if I tell them now then it won't be so bad because they can find someone else.


With that said, I think for now I'm just going to do my best at getting the second job. I wish I could work at all 3 jobs but I know they would clash, so it's better to stick with one flexible job and one consistent job. Working both jobs would give me enough income to sustain myself but I still even worry those two jobs could clash. As of now I don't know how things will turn out. I just have to hope that it will all work out.... who knows maybe those ladies didn't really like my interview and I might not get the job at all.... I just want to make the right decision.

I need to get some sleep, I have a long day of learning ahead of me tomorrow.




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