Habibullo-Eugene Kiselev

A Synopsis of my Life
2017-06-15 21:27:20 (UTC)

June 15th, 2017, Tuesday, 09:27:20 p.m.

Yekaterinburg, Russia. GMT 05:00
This afternoon I headed for the barber’s, which is situated in a yard of a mosque. I preliminarily set an appointment with a Muslim barber, named Xasan Maxmudov, who works there. I went to the mosque by trolleybus with a group of schoolchildren, boys and girls, accompanied by their teachers. The only thing, that irritated me a lot, were their red neckties, just like those of the pioneers of the former Soviet Union. To be honest, I again fell into speculation of the idea of having my own little son or daughter. I know that this is just nature, Nature and nothing more. I am thirty, and I have no heirs. Well, maybe, this is even for the better.
As I was walking up to the mosque, I saw a lady from our local LDS branch, Elvira Prikhodko (Russian: Эльвира Приходько), who was standing on the opposite side of the road waiting for the bus. I waved at her, she waved at me, and I felt a little sad, thinking of my youth, which had passed in a very close connection with the members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.
Xasan has made me an exclusive haircut for not very much money. As he was making my haircut, we were talking about a lot of things, Islām, in particular, and he asked me why I was not adopting this religion. I told him all my biography concerning spirituality. In particular, that I had already changed my religion for several times, but for now I need spiritual experience, which I am getting from the Runes, in particular.
It was in May, when I have completed my new poem, named “Crossroads”. Now I would like to make a short synopsis of the creation of this poem. Frankly speaking, it was hard. Really hard. Extremely hard. I was weeping or even crying while writing this. I cannot say why, it was just difficult, energy-consuming and, maybe, because of the topic, for I was writing about religion, religiousness, piety and spirituality. To be candid, this very poem took a great amount of my spiritual energy, although not as much as did “The Throne of Lucifer”, a longer poem, which I have completed in six years (2006 – 2012). In those times I was always deep in my prayers before recommencing with this longer poem lest the evil powers did not take control over me. I was really afraid of it and sought support and intercession from the powers of Light.
Such was my day. We will see what will happen later.




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