Lenne

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2017-05-12 07:05:06 (UTC)

Depressed again...

Yesterday I’ve tried my best to be active and had little chats with my friend Alice and Paul, I send “hello” message in respond to one of my Pen Pal friends, who interested about me few days ago. In the morning I had enough time to write about my Wednesday and during the day I started to write about Saturday. But since the working day was started – it was a busy day, it was like this till 4 p.m. and then everything became silent. I got my lunch then and had a cup of coffee with one of my male colleagues, he’s nice guy, but I can’t understand if he is interested in me as friend or girlfriend. He seem to communicate with all woman the same way: candies, nice words, help, giving pies of advices and some life tips. I like him, as I write, he is nice, though he is younger for 5 years and still is a student.
But anyway I was so tired in the end of working day. I tried to help myself with huge Hon-Kong’s waffle with apple and chocolate, I wanted to try it for long time, and it gave me some relax and piece, but just for a moment. I didn’t want to talk or do anything, I just went to the shower and had a cup of milk with bread for dinner and went to the bed even earlier than ever.
This day begins with sun again and it is silent, calm and nice. And it is Friday, which means that no matter what next day is Week-End. But I feel a kind of depressed yet. It’s like when you know that you have your parents and siblings and they loves you, they are always near and happy to see you, to talk to you, to help… but there’s no one else around. It’s like my life is empty again. Alice is ill, Paul doesn’t seem to have time and/or will to see me, Nina kept silent – she wasn’t that happy to communicate with me again, who else is there? No one. Not a single person. I have no one to talk to. And there is no one to meet. Why is it like this? There are so many people all around, but no one for me.
Oh, I should stop being like this…




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