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Ghost Writer
2017-05-02 11:58:00 (UTC)

Tired Tuesday.

I'm tired. Atorvastatin is leaving me tired out half an hour after rising in the morning, with Sero (Quetiapine) following close on the first drug's heels...gotta get more COQ10 soon. It's an expense @ $26.50 a month...


Hanging out for a drink and a night of deep, sexual passion with some gorgeous hunk of a man. Miss being kissed, held, caressed and pleasured long and deeply...and ESPECIALLY to be told that I am loved and I love him....whoever he is....for the longest time, I miss this. I might as well repeat and complete this paradox. It is easy for me to stay celibate now, yet I miss love and sex profoundly.


It's another bright, clear and warm Autumn day. Beautiful. I've swept a swatch of leaves up already and piled them onto the kerb for Autumn collection by town services. I'll try to do one-to-two piles a week. I HATE being idle. Got more sewing to do today and the last load of bedding to launder tomorrow while I drink wine. The damn washing machine is misbehaving!! It keeps running water through the wash barrel without fucking filling up on the wash and rinse functions ; I shovel more laundry powder in on wash and the water drains and rinses it out! FUCK so aggravating. Consequently, I'm now out of powder. This is becoming an expensive exercise doing the Laundry here : three boxes of powder used in a month, where one and a half is usual. Shit me days, I'm pissed off. I need a replacement machine. Wasting water too....


My dreams are...incredible. Shock value 11 out of 10. Both stun and amaze me. Highly unusual too. I want to write about them but........maybe I get brave enough.


Been singing sober today, just a little...it's ok being sober today : day four. Quite honestly, and insanely so, a part of me doesn't want to stop drinking. All I can write down today is already recorded. I'm done. Tired. Time to go back home.


Translation of the "three dots" I interpolate here and there in my writing....it means a pause in thought...a mental heartbeat....ciao darlings.




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