The Girl With 4 Scars

The Girl With 4 Scars
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2017-02-17 07:07:11 (UTC)

Guilt.

Sometimes, I feel guilty for complaining about some of the things I've gone through.

Realizing that someone has it much worse than I do.

But like any other human I have just become fed up with everything. Every person has their breaking point.

Sadly, I keep having them. I keep trying to move forward in life, but something always goes wrong. Or gets in the way.

And I just keep getting fed up.

I have been working at my new job for 9 months now. And an opportunity, has come up to where I could work full time for 3rd shift overnights. The minute I saw the sign up sheet by the time clock i immediately put my name on the list.

3rd shift is perfect me. I am more of a night person than a morning person. I would rather work 10pm-6am everyday then 10am-6pm. I know some people wouldn't. But I'm night owl. I am most awake during the middle of night.

I am usually too sleepy to work day shifts because I like to stay up all night.

I keep trying to think positive in hopes that I get the full time spot.

But with me, and my luck, someone else will get it. I fill myself up with hope, and then keep getting knocked down. My co workers seem to have more faith in me than I do that I'll get it.

I have just been trying to think positive. If there is a God, he knows I deserve this more than anything. A chance to finally work full time. My old job didn't have any full time spots unless I were to be a manager at a different location.

I keeping telling myself that I'll get it, I deserve it, I work hard.

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