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My Life Thus Far
2017-02-04 20:05:16 (UTC)

Long Walks In Torrential Rains

I didn't have a bad day by any means. It was fairly average, perhaps even better than average... so why am I feeling discontent? Disconnected? So far removed? It's not even the depression. It just a feeling like I didn't make the most of the day. I didn't do what I wanted to do. Maybe going two days without any significant time outdoors is taking it's toll. Which is funny, because I can remember when I never went outside during the winter months. Only long enough to get from the car to a building. And now I'm off because I haven't been outside in a couple days. Between work and driving rain, it just hasn't been possible. At least not comfortably. I'm not about long walks in torrential rains.


I've come to the conclusion that Sara (work colleague) is a passive aggressive coward. She thinks I don't like her solely based on me calling her out on her bullshit. She acts super sweet, but then talks about you behind your back. And no matter how many times I've told her to come to me if she has an issue pertaining to me, she doesn't. She pussy-foots around the issue. Avoids me. Then runs to another member of management to complain about how mean I am to her. How I only point out her flaws and never congratulate her on doing the trivial bullshit that is her job. For whatever reason, she avoided me all day, which made doing my job more difficult and annoying (considering it was busy). I feel like I need to have a conversation with Christine about this, but I don't know what good it will do. Christine feels the same way. We all do, actually. We're back in another "wait and see what happens" period again. Why can't we find good people to fill these positions? Why won't they give me Ops and Staffing? Why am I still here? Great questions.

Snookums wasn't home when I got home. He said he needed some time out on his own. I was a little disappointed because I got off kind of early and was looking forward to spending time with him. He just got home and it's a little after 8:30pm. Not late, but the day is basically done. So, no time together really. He did come home with a gift for me. Tiny silver hearts with little rubies in the middle. Not really my style. Mass-produced Valentine's Day jewelry, and I don't really like heart-shaped stuff, but it was sweet of him to buy them for me.

Wow... I'm cynical tonight. Fuck everything.




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