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My Life Thus Far
2017-02-04 00:05:59 (UTC)

As Low As It Was

There's not much to say about today. I spent most of it in bed because I thought I was getting sick. Well, not really getting sick. I've never fully gotten over the sore throat I had last week. It's exponentially better, but the past few days it's been a consistent feeling of always super thirsty (without actually being super thirsty). That dry, parched, itchy, scratch. Where you want to clear your voice and take a sip of water... but it doesn't really help. The plus side of it being I'm drinking much more water. Making up for the water I wasn't drinking when my sore throat was at it's height. Still, I had a bit of a headache too, so napping on and off through the day was blissful. Come work-time, I felt better for it.


I had a 4 hour closing shift that flew by so quick, I only looked at the time maybe three times (and that was during my break, making sure I didn't go over). I like nights like that. Closing isn't my favorite, but if I'm going to, I like it to be steady. Since I'd spent most of the day napping, I desperately needed to be busy to get my steps in, and I did. Easily, surprisingly. I got in more active minutes and steps than I did yesterday, and yesterday I went hiking.

Aside from fighting off the bug that has plagued my children, mentally I feel as though I'm much stronger. The low isn't quite as low as it was. I'm still feeling very raw... very vulnerable. I need to get back to the place where I felt bulletproof and confident. Unapologetic and tough as nails. I'm close, but I still battle subtle insecurities. Like, why do people keep telling me I'm beautiful? No I'm not. Of course I am. We all are in unique ways. It's the conventional beauty I'm not so sure about. But I could go on and on about those insecurities. Not tonight...





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