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My Life Thus Far
2017-01-25 22:32:47 (UTC)

The Feelings Of Others

Nothing about today went as I'd planned... but that wasn't a bad thing. Especially since my plan had been to clean. Something I really don't want to do. I get so overwhelmed by how bad the house gets. So many people... so many animals... and no one is willing to take ownership or help. It's frustrating. I love my family, but I hate how careless they are about the feelings of others. Perhaps it's not just my family, but it feels that way. And with the almost debilitating level of depression I'm fighting against, the thought of cleaning the house (only for them to destroy it) doesn't sound appealing to say the least.


Snookums covered a shift for a coworker last week, and got today off in return. I didn't know that until this morning. Instead of my initial plan, we went a different route. Lunch and a hike. Pho and Gold Mountain. Actually, I took him to the beaver ponds between Green and Gold Mountains. I could tell he really enjoyed the hike. He stopped constantly to see if maybe he could spot a beaver. Despite the fact that beavers are not generally active mid-day (and he knows that), he still kept trying to find them.

Our evening was spent with the kids, curled up in bed watching The Secret Life of Pets. I spaced out. I'm not even sure what I was doing, or what happened towards the end of the movie. I wasn't into it, but then again I'm barely into anything.

Snookums attempted to initiate sex and I turned him down slightly more aggressively than I think was necessary. He attempted to put his hand down my nightgown. I don't know why I got so bothered by it, but I did. He's definitely not interested anymore... but I never was. Fuck this fucking depression.




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