Prophetess's Words
2017-01-11 17:53:36 (UTC)


I'm trying to get this back to the actual day that I should write them. Seems to be working.

Yesterday I took my life back in some ways. It was a strange day to say the least. I put quite a few on 'restricted' on Facebook and finally just started posting things again. Somehow that was refreshing to allow myself to be myself again. It was nice to just finally do. Not caring who is offended or wants to 'stop' me from doing something or telling me that I am wrong to post anything. It was even better to see those that truly cared responding. Instead of the usual bs that I had been seeing that was just meant to further break me down.

I got to write some last night in the chat room and I even played some WoW last night. That was when the strange began. I don't know if it's because he had no one else to talk to since it was late for many or it was an honest reaching out. I kept it neutral since that seems to be the best thing to do. If I don't it could go either way, yet he kept typing so I kept answering. It was towards the end that I was rather confused. He talked about how he doesn't sleep well when he's alone. I was rather crass and said that I would think he was used to it by now. I couldn't tell if that was a jab or something else. It was strange for him to say since it had been his choice the situation is what it is. He had chosen for me to leave. He had made the choice to have things how they are.

He spoke of not keeping up with people and in a way I feel bad about that, but in others I don't. He accused me of isolating him. I never once isolated him. On the contrary, I tried to encourage him to go out. Even if it wasn't with me. He did on occasion with me to see movies or go to buffets. I had bought fishing stuff so that he could go by himself like he had once said he had done. I didn't care if it was with me or not. Yet I was the one that isolated him. Though as I have said before, if one went by his Facebook alone he has plenty that keeps him busy and plenty of friends to chat with.

He seemed to have gotten upset when I mentioned that the tone of his email led me to believe that I had been written off. Though he couldn't argue my logic about what I said. His retort was that I hadn't been blocked and deleted. I responded that I have a few that aren't blocked and deleted either that I don't exchange 2 words with. That logically that meant little. I could have also pointed out that he does much the same with others as well. I didn't though. He did understand my logic.

Needless to say it was strange that being the last person that I thought he would ever bother with, he messaged me. In either event this is going to be a quiet day for me. Son in Law is going to take the battery from the broke down truck and put it in the jeep. That cuts the cost back for me to just tag and title. Also the oil change. Once that's done then she's good to go once more. We plan to take it down to Florida next month. I still need to get over to Wiregrass and get college set up. Though thankfully being between semesters I am not racking up any fees. I still have my credits. So that's on my list of things to do.

I guess I'm going to end this for now and go function for a while.

“Measure not the work until the day’s out and the labor done.” Elizabeth Barrett Browning.