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Ghost Writer
2017-01-10 12:01:41 (UTC)

Dejected Bleat...

...wasn't going to come back here tonight as I have already posted today. Feeling quite dejected tonight and it's not a nice feeling....thought I'd write about so it doesn't start me off in a spiral of other not-so-nice feelings. It's a tough thing texting the daughter for months on end and not getting anything but one reply : a nice reply text "Merry Christmas mum." It's hard for me not knowing what is going on and being excluded. Pretty hard to take (accept) especially knowing that I can't see my grandchidren ...painful. Enough. Can't write anymore about it right now...

The minfulness work has been paying off some pretty positive dividends. The emotional shit is starting to shift and heal along with the head shit and I've beeñ enjoying some respite and peace on the inside. So. I'm ecstatic that this mindfulness therapy is working! And so very grateful too.

I have a friend here - a lovely friend - and he has given me a very interesting book as a follow-on from a previous entry of mine : 'Something Lighthearted.' which is a creative piece around my personal & past experience with members of The New Zealand Police, and also based on my years & years of watching cop reality shows, mostly NZ ones.
I think this book is well worth sharing, so here it is :-
"400 Things Cops Know : Street Smart Lessons From A Veteran Patrolman." And to quote my diarist friend, he says it's 'insightful and funny.'
Even the very title of this book intrigues me.
There's a commonplace saying among TNZP :- "You can take a cop out of the police force, but you can't take the cop out of the man [person]." Need to exercise political correctness here because there are a heck of a lot of women in frontline duty. (So God help me if they're aware of 'Something Lighthearted.' I meant no disrespect by the work.)...

Don't feel so dejected now ~ just cut off. Been that way for a while. I'll find what I need to get through this. Surely. Best get my meds in me then take a look at this book online. Plus I've got a few other things to do...sleep isn't one of them yet because I've napped today. Sign off time ~ 23:40. ♥ā™”love you my little familyā™”♥♥.




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