Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2017-01-02 22:59:36 (UTC)

Into The Hillside

I'm still trying to come to terms with the new site. I can't believe how sad I am about it. It's making me feel like such a stupid idiot. Something so trivial shouldn't affect me as much as this is. And yet, here I am... very upset about it.


Add to the fact that I'm only scheduled 18 hours (17.5 to be exact), I also wasn't scheduled for the SLM this morning. It's like the universe is sending up smoke signals telling me I need to move on... and yet I can't. I'm hopelessly devoted to a company that doesn't give a shit about me. The positive in this whole situation is that I'm not blinded by the idea that there's actually a company out there that would care about me. It's all about money and the bottom line. I have to find something that doesn't make me feel worthless while still offering me the money I need to take care of my family. Something that doesn't kill what's left of my soul in the process. Good fucking luck to me.

I got off work a little before 3pm, and I can already tell that the sun is setting later than even a week ago. Not by much, but at 5pm there was still light. I picked Anderson Landing Reserve as my momentary departure from civilization. It's such a pretty place. It used to be a homestead until the Anderson family gifted it back to the county. It's mostly second growth forest (with a few old giants) nestled into the hillside, slowly descending down to Hood Canal. There's amazing views of the Olympic Mountains, the sunset, seabirds, just nature in general. The trail itself is short. Just shy of 2 miles, but since I worked today I didn't really need many steps to reach my goal. I needed the time in nature. I can never get enough time in nature.

I found an apple cinnamon granola at Trader Joe's that doesn't have honey in it. I'm kind of excited about it. I'm going to enjoy my cereal and then sleep forever. I close tomorrow, so I'll relish not having to get up early.




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