rainy

My heart in a knot
2016-12-17 17:58:55 (UTC)

upset,

I've been laying here for the last few hours or so just thinking about a lot of different things. I did watch a movie that slightly helped me get my mind off of my worries but after I just had new things that were worrying me.


For starters, this girl I've been working with has been making lies about me and that is really irritating, what is worst is that I have no way to prove that she has lied. I feel so uncomfortable now that I will have to work with her again next week when she has lied so many times, if I would of known she was like that then I would of kept my distance from the beginning.


I will say that I don't feel confident that I will be keeping this job and a part of me is ok with that now that I have seen it for what it is. Plus the distance and working at night are not things that I want to do. I wish my old job would have accepted my application but I just have to live with it and move on.


A part of me feels like I should feel guilty for taking this job especially when we were going through all the paper work for the job I had reservations about what I was getting myself into. This is why I wanted the restaurant job because it was quick and easy.


Maybe I sound lazy, I really don't know, all I know is that jobs that pay well tend to be more stressful and the people are more uptight and deceitful.


When I think about the conversation Ms. M and I had yesterday I realize that she likely thought that I was lying, she seems to hold the other girl in high esteem and likely believes her word over mine, this is already a poor working relationship and is likely bound to get worst. In this case I don't know what to do, but I feel like I just have to believe that things will work out.

This whole thing is starting to stress me so I need to go.




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