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My Life Thus Far
2016-12-14 09:11:50 (UTC)

A Momentary Blip Of Sadness

As tired as I was last night, I didn't expect to sleep for 10 hours, but that's what ended up happening. I don't feel the least bit bad about it, or like I wasted the day. I so often end up running on 3, 4, 5 hours sleep. When I get a chance to rest my body fully, I take it. I don't feel bad about it. Now, laying in bed all day, doing nothing, but also longing to get up and do something always leaves me feeling like the day has been wasted. It would have been nice to get in a long hike, but my body had other plans.

I did get to take a short little stroll, though. Even with the sun setting just after 4pm, I will still make an effort to get out in nature a little each day (work permitting). My plan was to visit one of the parks in my Urban Trails book. Pritchard Park on Bainbridge Island, but for the life of me, I couldn't find it and I was losing daylight fast. I settled for a short stroll along the downtown waterfront trail (before also walking the downtown area and visiting a couple shops). The section of trail I ended up on meandered through a lovely neighborhood called Leslie Landing. The homes in this neighborhood were big and beautiful, and for a split second I felt a hint of sadness and the thought that I may never be able to afford to live in a home like those in Leslie Landing. It was only a momentary blip of sadness, though. I've never longed to be filthy rich. I only ever wanted to be comfortable. All my bills paid and a little fun money left over to go on a vacation here and there. I can do that. Maybe not at the moment, but this is just a season. I am so much more fortunate than a very large percentage of the world's population. I know this, and I'm grateful for it. So what I'll never be part of the 1%. That's not me, anyway. I don't want to lose sight of the struggle that's made me the person I am. Even if it would be nice not having to think about money (and the lack thereof) all the time.

I found a great little thrift shop on the edge of downtown. It's called Bargain Boutique and proceeds benefit Seattle's Children's Hospital. A worthy cause. They closed at 5pm, so I didn't get as much time to look around as I'd have liked, but from what I saw, there's some really good stuff. Only downside is, they know they've got some really good stuff and the prices reflect that. I found this really great vintage Bergdorf Goodman sweater I could definitely have seen myself in, but when I flipped the tag... it was $68. Was it worth that? Probably. I have no idea what a new piece would cost, and this one's tag looked to be from the 60's. The style was timeless, and the condition was pristine. So, probably worth it, but not something I could afford in the moment. But I'll always think about the one that got away... They have a color coded discount system (each color tag corresponds to a percentage discount). I didn't learn that until after I accepted I couldn't afford the sweater and had to leave because they were closing. I should go back soon and see if it's one of the 50 or 75% off colors!

Tonight as I was driving home, I noticed that the moon looked kind of big (I notice stuff like that about nature). When I got home, I pulled up a lunar calendar to see when the next full moon is (sure enough it was tonight). The crazy thing was, the list of dates for full moons in 2016 looked familiar. Like I'd acknowledged those dates before. That's when I made the connection. The dates of the full moons also correspond to when my periods started. I keep track of them on my phone's calendar, so if I ever need to know first day of last period (they always ask at the doctor's office), I'll have the answer. Give or take a day here and there (except the past three months, which have been spot on) I menstruate with the full moon! Crazy. So, you know I had to Google the significance of that. What I found was kind of a horoscope type thing. There's the white moon menstrual cycle (bleeding with the new moon) and red moon cycle (bleeding with the full moon). I'm on a red moon cycle, which translates into me being on a path of self-awareness. Self-growth, personal development, creativity, mentoring, teaching, healing, and being associated with "darker" energies related to shamanism, high priestesses, and other women of importance and influence. I find that to be particularly accurate in my life at the moment. I've never been more focused on self-growth and development. But I'm also skeptical by nature.

To make the whole moon cycle thing even more eerie for me, after doing that research I dropped the whole idea and went back to what I was doing. My period hadn't started, but as the website I'd visited told me, there's a window of about 4 days total you can start and still be considered on cycle with the moon. About 3 hours later, I went to the bathroom (and with no signs it was coming) and I had started. Not just spotting either, it's here. Exactly on the night of the full moon. For the third month in a row. I find it both creepy and cool. My periods before had been a day before or after, but still close. I guess I found another way to keep track of my cycle... I'm definitely one that's affected by the moon's pull.

I spent the evening baking and hanging out with Kiki and Keenan. I baked Snookums a gingerbread cake for his birthday, only to remember that he doesn't like gingerbread (nor do I). So, I made his favorite spice cake with cream cheese flavored (no actual cream cheese, though) frosting. I also made some banana pumpkin chia muffins that turned out so good! I'm impressed. I need to track my food in S Health for today to see if I can have another one before bed.




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