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Ghost Writer
2016-12-08 18:51:11 (UTC)

Up With The Birds.

Well in actual fact, the birds were awake before me. It's 05:52 a.m. Friday morning. I can hear them twittering loudly in a nearby tree they roost in holding tbeir daily team-builder meeting. All chirping at once. This happens every night before they go to sleep too. A text beep woke me an hour ago and I though it was bad news. I first woke up at 03:30 a.m. to see my bedroom light still on. Must"ve fallen asleep before I had the chance to get up and turn it off, then an hour later I was woken by that damn text beep! Another follower on my Twitter account. Just made a hot chocolate. Very nice.

It's another day. Don't know what today holds in store for me. Will there ne any good surprises? Or nasty surprises? I can only do the best I can. Sitting up on the bed or chair quickly nevomes uncomfortably painful. Lying down is the least painful route to comfort. Doesn't mean to say that I get to lie around in bed all day - definitely not. I'm going to try and do the dishes today and look after myself foodwise, which means cooking some one-minute steaks, boiled potatoes and a dense and leafy green salad with pumpkin and sunflower seeds. Should be delicious.

Not a day goes by that I don't think about my grandchildren and miss them very much. Precious darlings.

Reality can be a very, very hard and difficult part of life to process and accept. I guess that's why we're only given life one day at a time.
Today I have two 12-step slogans to live, which I need right now :

FIRST THINGS FIRST.
THINK, THINK, THINK.

My recent physical injury has put me in a position where I need to take things easy. It's the mental "housework" that I need to practice "EASY DOES IT" with.

There are two types of therapy that I would really love to sink my teeth into :
Dialectic Behavioural Therapy.
Cognitive Nehavioural Therapy.

Not sure if we have psychotherapists in this country. I'm pretty certain we do have this kind of specialist care, only I think it would be incredibly expensive. There's a small tight-knit group of elite therapists in this country that I don't know how to access. And wouldn't I love to be able to do that. Right now it's stalwart realism to practice being satisfief with what I've already received. And grateful too.

On this note, I'm going back to sleep on 12.5mgs of Sero.




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