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My Life Thus Far
2016-11-14 06:23:09 (UTC)

Fuck People

Dirty Dancing is on TV! I'm not a huge TV watcher, but as I was scrolling through the channels looking for old Law and Order episodes I passed it and had to stop. It's one of those movies that even though I own it, I will still watch it on TV every chance I get. I just love it. I like to think of Keenan as a new baby reincarnation of Patrick Swayze. He looks just like him in his tight little white t-shirts, black tights, and ballet slippers. Perhaps I'm living vicariously through him, but it just brings me so much joy. I love that my baby loves to dance and is doing so well. Almost 6 months later and he's still just as excited about it as he was when he started back in June. So anyway, I'm going to attempt this entry, but if I seem distracted... it's because I am.

I've been kind of off for most of the day, and I know it's because I didn't get much sleep last night and had to be up early this morning. Getting up before 8am can go one of two ways for me: I'll feel so accomplished for getting up and getting an early start on the day, or I'll feel sluggish and drained all day. It was the latter in this case, and I think fluctuating hormones played a part. I feel pretty volatile the week before my period. It has such a dramatic impact on my life, to the point where every month I feel very motivated to do something about it. Then my period starts, the hormones level off, and I forget how dramatically I was affected for a full week out of every month. How many more years do I have to go through this?

We had our holiday all store meeting this morning, and it went really well. It was one of the few store meetings (not sales leadership meetings, that's a different thing) that I really felt like I played an integral role and even learned something myself. This was also my first time meeting the seasonal hires. They started the onboarding process today. I'm not sure if I'll be playing a role in that being that they're seasonal and don't get as much training as core associates do. But I'm sure I'll be doing a lot of coaching in some capacity. Whether I want to or not.

I made a huge mistake and went to Costco while sleep deprived on a weekend. What the hell was I thinking? It was so crowded. I was so irritated by the time I procured the few things I needed that I didn't even enjoy strolling the aisle like I normally do. It never ceases to amaze me how completely self-absorbed/self-involved/oblivious to other people some humans can be. There could be 10 people trying to get down an aisle and some idiot will stop in the middle to look at their phone. Or stop right next to the sample station (blocking passage) and have a heart to heart with the sample person. Then they give you the stink eye when you ask them to move. Fuck people. That's how I feel about it. I'll stick to going mid-week when nobody else is there.

Tomorrow is another early day. I have to go in at 7am to rework bra wardrobing and then we have a sales leadership meeting (SLM) at 8am. So another very early day, and I think I might cry. I tried taking a nap when I got home today, but I couldn't get comfortable and I was nervous that I wouldn't hear my phone if Annie texted me (she was at work and didn't know exactly when she'd be getting off). Of course now it's after 11pm. I have to be up in 6 hours and I'm still awake. Wide awake. And I feel fine. No fatigue. No headache. Nothing. Just fine. It's a testament to how nocturnal I am. I felt like moody, sleepy, shit all day... now I'm fine. Ugh.




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