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My Life Thus Far
2016-11-10 07:57:52 (UTC)

There Is Hope For Our Country

I'll have to write fast. For whatever reason I felt inclined to have one of the hard root beers that are in the fridge when I got home from work tonight. I can feel it setting in. Even though they're only 5% alcohol, since I'm not a drinker, who knows how it'll affect me. I can't remember the last time I had any significant amount of alcohol. I finished the bottle, and it was good too.

I didn't feel a deep-seeded sense of dread at the idea of going to work, but I can't say I was very keen on the idea, either. I even considered calling out, but I reminded myself that I'm off tomorrow and I just needed to take it one customer at a time. Be Here Now. My work mantra. It's still helpful. There were a bunch of associates working today, so it wasn't a very taxing day, but busy enough that I wasn't bored.

The election came up a few times at work. It was refreshing to hear my (white) coworkers share in many of my fears and apprehensions about the future. Rationally I know not all white people are racially motivated, but on the same hand, not all are aware of the privilege they have solely because of the skin they were born with. Hearing them take full responsibility for having that privilege and talking about how they are going to utilize it for the greater good was wonderful to hear. There is hope for our country.

My brain is fuzzy. Partly because it's getting late and I worked all day, and partly because of the beer. I think I'll sleep well tonight. Speaking of sleeping well, I had a very vivid dream last night... and I enjoyed it very much. I dreamt that I had a girlfriend. I can't say I've ever felt any bisexual inclination, but in the dream it felt totally right and natural. In real life, it's something Snookums and I have talked about half a dozen times. He's totally okay with me having a girlfriend, but not a boyfriend. He knows and understands that I'm polyamorous, but he's very traditional and not at all okay with me having a boyfriend. I've always been attracted to men, but I'm not entirely opposed to being with a woman once or twice. It's something to think about...




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