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My Life Thus Far
Everything
It saddens me slightly knowing that the only reason I had a reasonably good day at work was because I wouldn't allow myself to think about how slighted I truly feel. If all I focus on is helping the customer. Getting from one person to the next, cleaning up the messes they make, recovering the store. If I don't let myself think about how I've been continuously passed over for a position I'm perfect for. How I'm expected to perform miracles, even when no one else is helping achieve said miracles. If I just do the work, and don't think about my feelings too much, everything is okay... and I have to turn right around and do it again tomorrow!
I don't know what was different about today, but a LOT of people commented on how I looked. Four people complimented my hair, two complimented my makeup/facial features. Another told me that my look was everything. She walked up to me and said "Hi, I need a sports bra, but before we get into that, can I just say, this whole look you got going on is everything! Your hair, makeup, you look good!" It was a great compliment. A thousand times better than some stranger coming up to me and grabbing a handful of curls. I did take a little more time doing my makeup and I diffused my hair instead of letting it air dry. I honestly didn't feel like I looked all that much better, but apparently so. The last person who complimented me shouted through the glass doors after closing to tell me she loved my hair! It was crazy, but flattering.
Today's S Health observation: I eat EVERYTHING in sight when I have PMS. Not kidding. All I can think about is food. This past week I've just been eating so much more than usual. Which is annoying, since I'm accustomed to not feeling very food driven. I rarely ever meet my caloric requirements (always 700-500 calories below what S Health recommends, and that's after I make myself eat something else, because I'm 1,000 or more under). I've kept my numbers in check, but I have to admit I'm trying. I can now see that it's the week before my period that has kept me overweight all these years. It would be no problem at all to eat 3 times what I ate today (which would be over 5,000 calories), and while I rarely ever succumb to all my urges, I know I usually give in a lot and I'd guessing it would be over 3,000 calories, a thousand extra each day for over a week. This app has been so beneficial!
I wonder what it's like being able to fall asleep so easily? Snookums is sleeping next to me and I envy him. I hope sleep comes easily tonight. I'm so sore and tired.
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