Interrupted
My Life Thus Far
When The Awful Returns
I can't stop singing the praises of cannabis in my life (though I haven't been talking about it as much lately). For whatever reason, I developed the worst headache I've had in a very long time. I'm not sure if it was caused by North Pine incense (something new, perhaps a bit strong), the fact that I've barely eaten today, or maybe because my headband is too tight. Who knows? I took three hits off my Vuber and it's GONE. Totally.
I don't know if it's just me, but when cannabis alleviates the pain, there's always this warmth/tingling/numbness in that area. The pain is gone, but this light remains. I'm feeling that in my back and right smack dab in the middle of my forehead. Three hits isn't enough to get me high, or make me fall asleep, but it's just enough to silence minor pain. I'm still wondering why the pain-relieving properties of cannabis haven't been refined into a pill form that doesn't contain any THC. Just CBD. But I guess if it were that easy pharmaceutical narcotics like Vicodin or Oxycodone wouldn't get you messed up, either.
Nothing much to share about today. I ran a few errands, hung out with the kids, and went on a walk. Pretty quiet. Everyday I expect something awful to happen, and everyday I'm surprised when it doesn't. But the moment I let my guard down and expect good things to happen, that will be when the awful returns. It's best for me to always live in a state of suspended animation. I go about life, but on the inside I'm always ready for something terrible to befall me. If I've learned anything in life, it's that I should be prepared for the worst and pleasantly surprised when it doesn't happen.
I haven't felt hungry all day, but of course at 11:30pm I'm hungry now. Good thing I don't care about what time I eat. I need a snack. I've got three super ripe mangoes calling my name!
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