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My Life Thus Far
2016-09-24 07:41:26 (UTC)

No Matter How Small

I got dad to the airport safe and sound this morning. It's funny how different 3am feels in bed watching Criminal Minds or Law and Order, and how 3am feels driving through construction in Seattle. It was a little rough when we first headed out at 2am (I had a headache), but by the time I dropped him off and started heading home, I hit some kind of second (third, maybe fourth) wind, and it wasn't so bad. I turned up my music, drove a little faster, drank a ton of water (not the best idea, I had to pee SO bad when I got home!) and I got through it. As I was pulling out of the departures unloading area I told myself I'd be home by 4:30am, and sure enough I pulled into my driveway at 4:30am. It's always a good idea to have a goal. No matter how small.

I generally take my sweet ass time getting to sleep. I may go to bed at a decent hour, but I won't actually fall asleep right away. I didn't play this morning, though. Somehow I managed to make myself some breakfast (I was STARVING, which I think is why I had the headache to begin with), watch a little Law and Order: SVU, play a couple games of Scrubby Dubby, and still be asleep by 5am. I needed to be up by noon for work, and I knew it would be a miserable day if I didn't get some sort of good sleep.

Work didn't even feel like work. I only had a 4 hour shift and by the time I got settled into my routine, it was over. It was business as usual. Nothing much to share there. On my way out I saw Jenna's car in the Silver City side of the parking lot and got the idea of leaving her a little note on her windshield. Just to let her know I miss her. I really do. I didn't realize how much I'd grown to appreciate her and genuinely like working with her. There aren't many I feel that way about. I certainly can't say I like anyone at work as much as I liked her. Well, maybe Jessica or Allison. Kaitlin and Christine are okay, too. But that's about it. Everyone else I have a good work relationship with, but I wouldn't call them friends.

Jenna texted me tonight and we chatted a bit about the Ops and Staffing position (the job she left and I'm in the running for). She gave me some valuable tips to employ in the pursuit of the position. I'm feeling like there isn't any great hurry to get the position filled. Christine says she wants me in it, but doesn't seem to feel totally confident that Nicole (our new district manager) will agree. I might just be feeling a bit paranoid, but I can't help but wonder if maybe they're actively seeking someone better, and if that someone better doesn't come along, then I'll win by default. Not how I want to win the job, to be honest. I'd rather not get it at all. If they don't have faith that I'll be successful. I'd rather just stay where I am truly thriving. I'm the best bra specialist in our district (according to our departed DM, Laura. And she didn't even like me all that much). I won't let that go to be a lackluster Ops and Staffing Supervisor. I want more than that. And after 10 years, I think I deserve it.

Snookums and I did something we just about never do tonight. We took a bath together! I lit candles and ran us a nice warm bath with Epsom salt and a Lava Lamp LUSH bath bomb. That's a new one for me. It's a mixture of Sicilian mandarin, tangerine, and there's cocoa butter nuggets imbedded into it. The smell and feel of the oils on your skin was amazing. Snookums enjoyed it, too. Sometimes I wish LUSH wasn't so darn expensive, but I think I appreciate it more knowing it's high quality, natural ingredients. It probably wouldn't be if it was cheap.

He gave me a back massage and we attempted sex, but we're both tired and he might have been a little too relaxed. His frustration about this is palpable. I feel for him, but since he somehow always manages to get me off (not usually via penetration), I'm not too upset about it. If anything I want him to find a solution for himself.




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