Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2016-09-19 09:38:34 (UTC)

I'm Not Heartbroken About It

I swear, I could kick myself every time I wait until 1 or 2am to write. Well, tonight its approaching 3am, and here I am. I would say I need to get on some kind of "normal" sleep schedule, but I know that isn't going to happen. I'm off tomorrow, so I can sleep in a bit.

I started off the day with a conversation with my dad. We talked more this morning (a two days before he flies home) than we spoke the entire 4 months he was gone. It was a much better way to start my day - chatting with dad, instead of fielding my annoying mother in law's texts. Which, for whatever reason she didn't sent today. I don't know why she didn't text, but I'm not heartbroken about it.

It was a very chill Sunday. I had it off, which rarely happens. So, I took the little ones with me to run some errands. When we were done with the boring business of buying batteries and picking out a new dog bed, we went for a walk on the Clear Creek trails. They meander through Silverdale, following along Clear Creek and passing over marshland too boggy to build on. All told it ended up being a 3.67 mile walk. It didn't feel anywhere near that long, and the kids had a good time checking out salmon habitat and reading educational signs they'd come across as we passed interesting landmarks. It was fun.

Sex is one of those things that isn't a problem until it becomes a problem. Over the past 5 days, Snookums and I have had sex 4 times. Not because we usually do, or even want to that frequently, but because Snookums was having a hard time sustaining an erection. Or if he could sustain an erection, he couldn't finish. I rarely ever have a problem these days, but there was a time I did, and I know from experience that if you put too much pressure on yourself to come, you won't. So tonight we tired again, only this time we took our time and put a little more emphasis on foreplay. It happened for him this time, but honestly I was really worried about how he'd feel if he failed again. I think another huge factor is his weight and poor diet. He's in terrible shape, and as he puts it, I'm aging backwards. I'm trying to bring him up to my level, but he's stubborn as hell.

Just for fun, I decided to track my food intake in S Health. According to them, I need to be eating around 2,600 calories. That seems so high to me! I am pretty active, but I don't think I'm that active, no matter what S Health might think. I ate just shy of 1,800 and was pleased to see that even as a vegan, I get more than adequate protein. I was a solid 8g over what a woman of my age and size would need, and I didn't eat much today. I don't know what the fixation on protein is.

I need sleep. I can feel the heaviness setting into my eyelids. Goodnight world.




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