Emma kaplan

Addicted to my therapist
2016-09-14 14:04:47 (UTC)

Getting too personal for here

I go to bed too late now that the boyfriend is around. I am constantly tired. We live together before getting engaged and now I feel like I have to put on a show for an enegagement to ever happen. We had our biggest issue last night that I won't go into details about here, but I can get crazy w my emotions and yell or whatever and I had to act like a Barbie doll.

The situation was so that he was he one who should be more upset, so he thought I should focus on comforting him. But really I was almost as frustrated and I was not allowed to be frustrated. If he was my therapist, I would have written him an angry email about how mad i was at him and frustrated by the situation.

I need to go to bed earlier. Eat healthier. Exercise. Save money. Gosh that sounds just like my parents. But my BF and I we are creating s culture where we eat cake a lot and he is like a stick but says he is gaining weight. Life is still unsettled. And now my emotions are whack.

I can't let him see my really emotional side like where I say point blank "what you are doing is just like your brother and you are holding us back and I will freak out one day" (actually I tell my therapist I hate her and she irritates me)

Some days I feel like I am being a liar walking around without a ring on my finger. And other days like today I feel perfectly free like a too old to be single gal with just no that.

We went back to the place where we had our first date, and it had gone out of business.




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