Emma kaplan

Addicted to my therapist
2016-08-26 00:34:34 (UTC)

Boxes

He did it. And voluntarily. We went to Home Depot and bought boxes in two separate carts. A few for the last bits at my house and the rest to start packing up his. Boxes! How boring and dull but made me smile. A small, medium, or large size moving box is the ultimate symbol of commitment. He commented on how much he loves my smile. Says its potentially the best.

I am about to pull off a feat just a scary, sneaky escapade into my roommate's home from 8am-12:30 pm while she is at work and before I have to lead a group at mine. I will sneak in and out like a mouse or ghost avoiding my potential fate of being on the front of the newspaper and in the morgue from blunt injury from my roommate and soon to be memory. Gonna get my food out of the fridge and do other odds and ends.

I need to work on my relationship w women. That is my next area of self growth. I have female friends, but I am not as close to them as I could be. I have a friend in mind to be closer w. I am in a good position now to have friends who are married or have kids because at least I now share a significant other. I look forward to it. I can be kind of difficult.

I don't want kids and sometimes I am scared to really connect w women. Like I see my close friend on e every month or two months. But maybe some more phone convos are necessary w her.

I love to write. I still want to write my therapist. But she is not going to be my female friend. I think she has other women to be friends with. Fancy therapists and neighbors. She has a certain reason for not wanting to be my friend and I am not exactly sure why. It's like even she does things for money. I need different women to be my close friends like who see me as an equal and aren't my therapist. Because your best friend cannot be paid.

She is like my nanny though:paid. But the transference is going down a little bit I think. I love my therapist but she also irritates me. And my relationships w women are not as good as I will get them to be.




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