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My Life Thus Far
2016-08-22 07:33:32 (UTC)

Dreams For The Future

My sense of well-being and contentment is at an all-time high. I attribute that to getting a full night's sleep (after going so many days on so little). I fell asleep a little before 11pm last night (early for me), and I woke up naturally (on my own) a little before 10am. They say you can't make up lost sleep. The body doesn't work like that, but I beg to differ. If I don't sleep well for an extended period of time, I always sleep 10 or 11 hours to make up for it. That has to count as something like making up lost sleep.

I was supposed to be onboarding again at work, but only one of the new hires showed up. I don't know what's up with this batch of new hires, but I have yet to see all of them in the same room, at the same time. I thought we were going to make more of an effort to hire people with open availability, but all of these girls have some kind of major obstacle when it comes to availability. School schedules, other jobs, undependable child care. Something. I know it's not feasible to find someone who can devote every moment to us, but dang. These particular hires are not only making it tough to get the onboarding done, they're committing to times and then calling out. I'm supposed to have 4 more tomorrow, but we'll see. It feels like this will never be done.

Snookums texted me this afternoon and asked me out on a date. He's so sweet. We both got off around the same time (me at 5:30pm, him at 6pm), and it's been a while since we've done something just him and I. So, I agreed. When I got off, I stopped at Trader Joe's to grab some groceries to make the kids dinner. White bean marinara with beefless ground beef, over brown rice pasta, and of course garlic bread. Had I known my dinner would end up being so fucking lackluster, I would have eaten with the kids before going. Their meal was delicious!

We went to the Bremerton Bar and Grill. I don't know why Snookums picked that place, since the last time we went there I didn't have a single option off menu. I think they had to make something up for me, and it wasn't that good. But their menu is seasonal, so I think Snookums was optimistic that there would be something new I could eat. There was, but it was... blah. I had roasted Brussels sprouts with a roasted red bell pepper coulis and slivered almonds. It was very visually appealing, but so bland. I couldn't figure out how something with so many colors and textures could be so boring. I make Brussels sprouts at home all the time (without coulis or nuts), and they taste way better than what I had tonight. I didn't even finish, and it was only an appetizer sized portion. We ate there some time last year and it was great. I couldn't tell you what happened, but it's never been as good since. Experiences like this are exactly why I'd rather just stay home and cook our meals. We all can enjoy them.

We stopped at Target on our way home tonight. Out of curiosity I peeked into the bathroom to see if that toilet was still leaking (the one that made me slip and fall a few days ago). Miraculously (after leaking for at least a couple months), it's not anymore. The floor was bone dry, and there was a wet floor sign prominently displayed, even though the floor wasn't even wet. I bet the associate that witnessed my fall went and told her manager what happened. I'm not mad. I'm glad my fall facilitated some change. Though, I find it hard to believe they didn't know the toilet was leaking. I'm in there at least twice a week, and it's been leaking for a very long time.

I still needed quite a few steps (because I spent most of my day at work sitting in the office, tapping on an iPad). So, Snookums took me to Poulsbo Waterfront to walk the boardwalk and marina docks, like we used to when we first started dating. It was lovely. The moon shining through the clouds, the lights on the gazebo, the boats... just like it's always been. The consistency is comforting.

I'm so thankful things are starting to look up for us. Financially we're still in a predicament (we will be until his paychecks start coming in), but at least there's relief in sight. We talked about the future. We revisited some fond memories. Above all else, I was (and still am) grateful that he was talking to me. Having a real conversation. Not just mundane day to day topics. But a real exchange of thoughts, feelings, hopes. Whenever I ask him what he's thinking, he always says "nothing", but our conversation tonight showed me that he's got dreams for the future, and they revolve around me.




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