Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2016-08-21 03:56:21 (UTC)

He's My Safety and Comfort

Yet another night of no sleep. Man, I'm counting my lucky stars Snookums won't be working graveyard on the regular. I'm not accustomed to being alone at night anymore. Back when deployments were our way of life, I dealt with it, but that was 7 or 8 years ago. Regardless of whether or not I'm happy with him, his presence in the house and in my life is a constant comfort. Perhaps that's another indicator that I need him in my life. He's my safety and comfort.

I finally forced myself to power down a little before 6am. The sun came up. I figured I should try to get a couple hours. And that's exactly what I got. A couple hours. When my alarm went off at 8am, I wanted to cry. I pulled myself together, though. And I gave myself a proverbial pat on the back for packing my lunch last night, so I didn't have to figure that out in the morning. Or worse, not leave myself enough time and risk going hungry all day. On top of tired.

Despite the lack of sleep, I had a good day at work. I had a 12 bra sale, had great connections with the customers I helped, and there were no major upsets. A successful day by all regards. The day flew by. I'm still pleased as a peach by how well work has been going. It makes me a little nervous about pursuing the Ops and Staffing position. I can't decide if it's actually in my best interest.

I told Snookums how tired I've been via text, and my sweet husband was waiting for me in the mall parking lot with an iced coffee, and he got me veggie pho for dinner. He propped me up in bed with my pho and a Law & Order: SVU marathon. Which is were I am now. Slightly high and sipping on organic breakfast black tea. He may make bad choices, but ultimately he's just a big sweetie. I know my Snookums loves me. He's done everything in his power to make sure I'm aware of that.

I know I mentioned how petty I've become in regards to Instagram followers. I refuse to follow someone who's unfollowed me. I won't be just another number if they don't care about the stuff I post. I fully acknowledge that I'm being overly sensitive about it, but I think it's incredibly arrogant and rude. Well, I found a way to turn the tables on the hurt. Instead of feeling sad or unimportant because someone decided they didn't want to see my posts anymore, I downloaded an app that will tell me who and when someone unfollows me, so I can turn around and unfollow them! I made a post warning everyone of my new policy, and that if they unfollow me I will be unfollowing them as soon as I become aware. I love InstaFollow. Some random guy unfollowed me today, and instead of having to do intensive Instagram research to figure that out, I was able to hit one button and know exactly who dumped me. Hitting unfollow was so satisfying. While I was up all night, I used the app to go through my entire list of follows and purge over a hundred people. Old coworkers, high school friends, random internet strangers. Gone. They don't deserve to occupy my attention if I'm not even a thought to them. As stupid as this is, it's important to me. And getting rid of over a hundred connections (as tenuous of a connection as they were) I'm lessening my online presence. Eventually I think I'll be ready to leave social media all-together. I do enjoy taking and posting my photos, but I could start a blog for that.

There will be no staying up all night tonight. It's not even 10pm and I'm already feeling the urge to curl up and drift off... Snookums is laying in our bed, right beside me :)




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