Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2016-08-17 07:12:51 (UTC)

A Shit Day

It was kind of a shit day, and I have no one to blame for it, but myself. It was shit, because I wasted it. I spend all day sequestered in my bedroom, watching a Law and Order marathon. I woke up so impossibly sore from my run yesterday that there was no probable way I could repeat it today. That kind of put me in a funk. I felt angry with myself for letting my body become so out of shape. I know there's nothing I can do except get back in shape, but still. It's irritating.

Even though I spent all day in bed, I still got my steps in. Snookums came home from work (that feels nice to write) and offered to take me to Battle Point to walk. We also went to Casa Rojas for dinner (a little Mexican restaurant on Bainbridge). I didn't enjoy my meal all that much, but the chips and salsa were good.

During our walk, we talked about how much we've grown apart over the years. It wasn't a bad conversation. Simply an observation of what both of us have noticed. I am constantly learning and evolving. He isn't. I don't honestly feel like we're on the same level anymore. He hasn't changed in 13 years, and that isn't a good thing. I don't know if what we talked about sunk in, but it felt important to get it off my chest. I want to spend time with him enjoying what's important to him (because we so often do things that are important to me),but he can't even tell me what's important to him. He has no hobbies. Which I find strange.

I'm in a petty and vindictive mood tonight. I came to the realization that a lot of people I thought were my friends have unfollowed me on Instagram. I know it's just social media and I shouldn't care. I know it doesn't mean there's anything wrong with me, or what I post. It just bothers me. I want to be connected to my friends, and yet they don't want to be connected to me. It took awhile, but I managed to figure out who's unfollowed me, and I went and unfollowed them. And then I downloaded an app that will make it easier to figure out in the future who has unfollowed me. Vindictive or not, I don't want to keep people in my space who don't want to share in my life as well. I'm not too far from getting rid of Instagram, too. I'm quickly losing interest in social media.




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