Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2016-08-14 06:08:28 (UTC)

I'm Just Not Wanting It Bad Enough

Yet another day, I wanted to get up early and go for a run... yet another day I didn't. My mind and body want to get into a healthier fitness routine... My mind and body also want to stay in bed as long as possible. Particularly on the days when I have to be to work 9 or 10am. Every moment in bed is precious. I'm going to keep striving for it though. If you want something bad enough, you'll take whatever steps necessary to reach that goal. I do want to get in shape. Clearly I'm just not wanting it bad enough yet.

Work inexplicably went slower today than it did yesterday. 8 hours flew by faster than 4.5, and the only reason I can think of for that is because I was expecting it to go by quickly because it was a shorter shift. I've gotten to the point where the full days are more desirable than the short ones. They go by faster, I make more money, and I don't feel like I have to fight with myself to stay focused. I'm living in the moment, instead of letting my mind wander to what I'm going to do after work.

As I was having Christine check my bag on the way out of work, she asked if I was still interested in the Operations and Staffing Supervisor position. I told her I was, but that I had some reservations about whether or not the higher ups in the company felt I was right for the job, since I had been passed over when Jenna was hired. She assured me that wasn't the case. Sara has been assisting Nicole in handling the hiring needs for the district, but since I'm friends with Sara, she can't be the one to interview me. So, Christine is setting up a second interview with Suzette. I believe she's the manager of South Hill. I didn't think I knew her at all, but as I was leaving I remembered that I bra certified her at Tacoma several months back. But I'm not friends with her. I'm cautiously optimistic. That I'll get the position, and that if I do, I'll be happy in it. I want to do well. I don't want to just half-ass it and get by like I did before. Because that's exactly how it was in my last managerial position. I just got by, and that's not what the business needs. I'm also optimistic because I'm getting lined up for a second interview and I never had a first. So either Christine has faith in me, or this is just a formality and they've already got Jenna's replacement in the position. I can't let myself be disappointed if that's the case. I know I've got something good right now.

Since I did get off so early today (after what felt like an eternity) we took the kids swimming at Belfair State Park. It was ridiculously packed, and oddly enough with a ton of French speaking people. I found that odd, because at work today we also had an influx of French speakers. I wonder why that is? Maybe it was coincidence... even though the parking lot was crowded, and the camping area was filled to capacity, we were still able to find a nice spot in the grass right on the water's edge. It's idea for us. I lay in the sun, and the kids get to swim in warmish waters. Daddy did his best to avoid the sun at all costs. He's still traumatized by his worst sunburn ever two weeks ago.

I should have gone to sleep half an hour ago if I wanted 8 hours of sleep. That didn't happen, and probably won't anytime soon. Snookums wants sex, and I want to eat mangoes and watch tv. So looks like another struggle to get out of bed in the morning!




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