Lenne

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2016-07-18 07:33:22 (UTC)

This is about last week from 11.07.2016

You can't see any writtings for last week, but there were some. Again I did it! I wrote it during the day, but never published. So, here they are now!

11.07.2016
So, last entry I’ve written that I have nothing interesting to say about last week. The weather was overcast most part of the week, it was rainy some days and I felt wick. I’ve been at doctors again to make her inspect my problem that is waiting for two months. Why? Because she told me that I should come to her exact time. The problem is that this time (Ok, let’s call it exact action of my organism) is not coming and it is really strange, I can say wrong. So, next week I have a kind of investigation at the hospital. And this week some more doctors: therapist and ophthalmologist. And I thing first will sent me to check blood and more. Think I’ll ask for short circle of analyses to be sure.

Yesterday I visited Zoo again. This time I think I walked through all the territory. Now my list of first things to do consists of Planetarium and excursion on a river bus.

Hey, I’m wrong, there happened something last week.

I have fellow here at work, remember? Well, we’ve spent last Wednesday’s evening together. We were drinking wine and eating cakes at a restaurant. Then we walked a bit… everything was great… and then this. On Thursday in the morning, before coming at work he sent me a message: “You know, I thought that it’s better to wait with all this wine and closer relations till the time we don’t work in the same organization”. What do you think? Hello, man, what are you thinking about? What is that? What was that? Why?

Hey, I’m not in love with him, but…

Ok, you’re right, absolutely right. That is right decision. That is right for the business. That is what I wrote him some minutes later. I didn’t know what to say else. He asked if it is Ok. I replied that it is.

And then he wrote me that he bought crème and invited me for the coffee with crème. What? Are you serious? Where is logic here?

No, no, no, I understand what’s happening. That was check. He wanted to know my reaction. He tried to check my feelings. I had to say something like “Oh no, I’ll be missing…” at least.

Ok, you won again. I really think that it was last part and now our game is over. I just can’t see any reason to play further.

Now, I’m still waiting for a reply from that organization. And I want them to be a bit faster making decision. Because I want to buy my tickets to Latvia and get my visa and go for a vocation in August. And I’m waiting for them only because I really want to work there. Come on, guys, if you don’t want me, just tell me, I won’t cry, I promise. I have other variants here and some plans, so I don’t need you till death.

12.07.2016
Big Plans for the week. Today I go to doctor, tomorrow’s evening I spend snacking on ice-cream at Planetarium and Thursday’s at doctor again. Well, if my parents move out of the city till Saturday Friday’s evening I’ll spend at the park watching fountain show and eating hot dog (Oh, God, for how long I didn’t eat it?). What about menu for those three days? I’m going to boil macaroni for tomorrow’s supper and Thursday’s and Friday’s dinner and for Thursday’s supper I have no plans yet. Maybe that will be nachos with sous and cola light or some fried pie of kitchen of some Caucasian nationalities (yes, for now I’m fond of their fried pies and rolls. Maybe I should try to cock it myself). That’s a big pity that I have not enough time to try all the food I want to have for dinner and supper. You know, when you live with someone, more over if there are several people and you have one kitchen, limited amount of money to spend and everyone want tasty food there is no choice, you cock the same food for everyone. For example, my father loves Spaghetti and Vermicelli or Spaghettini, truly to say, he doesn’t make a head or tail in macaroni types, but he hates thick macaroni when I love it. Or he don’t think that salad together with vegetables and hot dogs or sandwiches or rolls are good for Sunday’s dinner. But he really thinks that tea with sweet pies at 11 p.m. are good for supper. And I prefer it also at evening, after a long day as second lunch some two hours before supper, but not that late. And my parents sees no sense in boiling soups on every day’s basis when I really prefer to have it for dinner from Monday till Friday.

What it could be like? Let’s say on Sundays evening I could cock a soup and a salad for to take for a lunch at work together with some slices of bread and some vegetables and cock chicken on steam, boiled potato or macaroni for supper to eat it with sous, vegetables and bread, I can cock it all once for all week and I don’t need to cock again. I need five portions of each dish. That takes long time to cock, but once I did it I’m free till week end when I’m going to cock something fast and easy and tasty as hot dog or sandwich or snack on chips or eat out, eat fast food… to have such a little celebration. Yeah, it may look boring to have all the same for all week, but that’s tasty and healthy enough and it is good decision for those people who are busy at work, tired at evening and have will to live, to go out sometimes, to do something except work even after long day at the office, as I do. And it may be really cost effective decision.

Dreams…

Yeah, many things could be changed if I live alone. It’s clear about menu. Of course I could be lazy about cocking and to start with snacks and fast food, sweets or something, but I believe that the will to save money and eat healthy food will win. I could change home dressing, make it more sexy, walking around the flat in my underwear, sleep naked and more, I could change TV watching regime: I could watch it either at the early morning while eating my breakfast and at the evening with all the comfort of the living room, not watching that small screen at the kitchen siting on uncomfortable sofa and I could watch my favorite films on DVD, not only series which are shown on TV that exact day. I could use extant of the flat as I want to use it, I could burn candles at evening, use aroma therapy, listen sea or forest sounds not only inside my room…

Dreams… sweet dreams. It’s better to stop.

Look, I love my family and I don’t want them to leave. I know I’ll miss them, if I’ll move somewhere. And I know that it’s not that easy to live alone. But that may change my life so much, I could live it as I want to live it.

Yesterday I wanted to buy some doughnuts to drink my evening coffee with and for my parents to eat them with tea at night. Now I’m not sure about it. Guess, it’s better to wait till I go home. There is a small fast food cafe where I can buy it on my way.

15.07.2016
Yesterday was a terrible day. Early at the morning I had to go to the hospital to give my blood for analysis, so I did, but even before it I felt no well. But that was nothing compare to what I felt like after that. No, just after a shot it was Ok, but during the day it was becoming worse and worse. Only at 7 p.m. it ended and I felt just great. Well, my blood pressure was very low yesterday. My morning state I can connect to the extreme weather change at night from perfect to horrible and then to Ok. And about my next state: there was a case when I studied at school. Once I hurt my finger with razor. I felt bad, dizzy and lost my conciseness for few minutes. That could happened because of the wrong place of my finger, some nerves were hurt, and I was wick girl, as they say. Maybe this time something like that had happened? Because today I feel perfect and active, just like yesterday’s late evening. I have no other explanation.

And I called to the bank I had an interview last Friday. I told them that I want to work for them. Now it’s up to them. I should wait for their answer and today a secretary will call me to instruct me with further actions. So, I’m sitting here with telephone right near not to miss her call.

I don’t know what to do at weekend. Walking again? For sure, but there is no interesting events to visit. What a pity… well, I should be positive about that and make some plan. At least, I had to go out for long walk next two days. And then a miracle could happen!




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