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My Life Thus Far
2016-07-06 05:38:00 (UTC)

There's Room For Happiness

At some point today, I felt really excited about writing. Like, there was something really important I wanted to write about... but now I can't remember what it was. Or if there even was anything. I felt happy most of the day, and I wonder if that sensation is what I wanted to share. Being that happiness is illusive, something I'm always striving for, I think feeling happy is noteworthy. I read somewhere that life isn't about being happy. It isn't why we're here. We're here to learn, grow, love, and evolve. I don't think happiness need be excluded from that equation. There's room for happiness, even if that isn't the sole reason we're here.

Last night I had a scary experience. Over the past week I've had a few instances of heart palpitations. Maybe an arrhythmia. I'll be fine, going about life as usual, when all of a sudden I'll get very lightheaded. My eyesight will go a little white (like I'm looking at a bright light). I'll feel very out of breath, even if I'm not doing anything strenuous. It's definitely a skipped beat and it throws me off for a few minutes. Then I'll be fine. I hadn't given the episodes much thought until last night. Out of the blue, I developed a sharp pain in my upper right back. The stabbing sensation radiated from my back, to my chest, then up my neck and down my arm. It lasted for about an hour, then just as suddenly as it came, it went. It didn't feel like any type of indigestion I've ever had, but I'd like to think that's what it was. I don't want to think it could be anything else, but I don't want to go to the doctor, either. If it happens again, I will though. I don't want to have a heart attack at 34 (not that I expect that to happen).

Thankfully while all this was happening, Snookums and the kids weren't home. We were planning on going to the Port Gamble fireworks, but turns out they were cancelled, so Snookums took the kids out for crap I don't eat. It was while they were gone I stood at the foot of our bed (because I couldn't sit or lay down without pain) and hoped the suffering would pass. It did. Thank goodness. I find it ironic that I'm a vegan that exercises every day, and I have heart problems. Even if it is just palpitations, why? It's annoying.

After work, Snookums and I spent the day together. I took him to Dollar Tree (a store I hate to love). Dollar stores have a stigma of being cheap crap that's all made in China, full of lead and arsenic. But Dollar Tree has some good stuff, name brands even. We got some groceries, cleaning products, and a few laundry baskets for the kids' rooms. Then we headed to Bainbridge Island.

We walked The Grand Forest together. I needed some steps, and Snookums needed to get out and move. He's been sick, and I'm trying to convince him that exercise and eating well help. I'm never too sure how much of my loving concern actually get's through to him. He's always talking about how good I look, and how my vegan body is "banging". I always remind him he can have that, too. But he's not ready. He'll eat what I cook, but he's not ready to jump in head first. Eventually... I'm patient.

We tried a new place for dinner tonight. Thuy's Pho House downtown on Winslow Way. It's right behind Emmy's Vege House. It's an adorable place. Tucked into the solarium of a very old building. It's family owned (like Emmy's) and they specialize in locally sourced ingredients. If I had to choose which pho I like better, I'd have to pick Green Garden's, but the broth and ambiance of Thuy's won me over. I like both. I guess having two viable pho outlets isn't the worst situation.




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