Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2016-07-03 05:16:24 (UTC)

But In This Moment

Day 3 of better self care, going to bed early, and (attempting to get) more sleep is going well. I feel very peaceful and content. I'm not entirely sure if everything is okay, but in this moment there's nothing I can do so I shouldn't stress (my mind keeps going back to Snookums work issues, not getting paid, not being enrolled in school, basically money and what happens when the money his parents gave us runs out). Learning to let go of the things I can't change has been a life-long challenge. I don't think I'll ever get the hang of it.

I had another night of fitful sleep, but I still managed to get up with enough time to take a shower, go to Starbucks, and make it to work on time. That's monumental for me! But in all fairness, I really needed a shower. My hair was feeling stiff and gross from a particular spray gel I don't like but for some reason keep trying to use.

Keeping myself busy at work wasn't too much of a challenge. I tasked myself to getting the wall of sale sleepwear and lingerie cleaned up and resized. There was more of it on the floor than there was actually hanging on hangers. A lot of the sets were missing pieces, too. I got it cleaned up between helping customers, and before I knew it I was off. I love days like that. I have to keep reminding myself that my job isn't that bad. On days like today it really isn't.

Out of the blue Annie messaged me while I was at work and asked if we could do something together. She suggested Battle Point. Which was surprising considering it seems like she never wants to hang out with us anymore. She's either with her friends or in her room watching Netflix. So that's what we did. We walked a lap around Battle Point while Kiki and Keenan played on the playground. Out of all the parks we've been too, they love Battle Point the best. I have to admit I do, too. I like that the playground is in the middle of the walking trail, and I'm never too far away from them. Even if they are getting so big and don't really need me to watch over them quite so much.

When we got home, I got in the bathtub. I've been looking forward to it all day. My back is hurting, my hip is hurting. I know it's hormonal. I just needed some relief. So, I made myself a lovely concoction of Epsom salt, seaweed (yes, real whole seaweed in a mesh bag), and a LUSH bath bomb. It was delightful. Now I'm sitting in bed writing, listening to my music, drinking tea... relaxing. My back does feel a bit better, but I can tell I'll need cannabis tonight if I'm to have any hopes of falling asleep... and I hope Snookums isn't as restless. I know that's the major factor behind my fitful sleep the past couple nights. I'm off tomorrow, so no alarm in the morning! That's always the best feeling.




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