Snuffy

Danielito
2016-06-23 15:55:30 (UTC)

Living alone.

Living alone has its pros and cons. Right now I'm just noticing the cons because I'm not used to the pros yet. It's so quiet. I can hear the guy on the other side of the wall snoring.
After work, I got home and ate something really quick, changed and went to pick up Hinocensio and Jose to take them with me to the Addiction Recovery meeting. It was a good meeting. Then I went home. It was around 8pm. It was dark and quiet. Cold. I decided to go for another run. I ran faster than usual and I felt strong and healthy. I got home around 8:30, took a shower, and by 9 I had run out of things to do. I didn't feel like reading, but I was bored. I could have been more productive but I was also exhausted so I went to bed.

It's nice to have that kind of down time and solitude at the end of the day but I'm not used to it. Tonight I'll be going over to Brandon and Olga's for band practice. That will be nice. And tomorrow London will be back from Walla Walla. She'll finally get to spend her first night at my new place. I hope it's kind of fun for her - a new adventure. I'm going to try hard not to shush her for the neighbor's sake. I want her to feel like she's free to do what she couldn't do while living at Brandon and Olga's.

Life is actually really good. It's a bit stressful but I've been blessed with a lot. It's hard not to compare yourself to your friends or parents who have bigger houses, higher incomes, etc. It's hard not to feel embarrassed that I have bad credit and low income at age 32. But compared to really poor people, I have a place to live that is clean and I have furniture and I have food in my fridge. I have a car that I can use to give people rides to AR meetings, and drive to Seattle every now and then. I'm in good health and I have people in my life who love me and support me. I have a job that allows me to have a place to live and food to eat and a car to drive. That's huge.
I also have a daughter who is excelling in school and gymnastics and piano. I have a lot to be grateful for.




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