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My Life Thus Far
2016-06-14 06:08:36 (UTC)

In This Moment, I Am Well

It's almost unbelievable how awesome I'm feeling. Right now. In this moment. I think it's important to stop and take stock of what you're feeling at any given time. So often we focus on the day. I know I do, a lot. But sometimes life needs to be lived moment by moment. And in this moment, I am well. Nothing is hurting much. I'm not hungry, or thirsty. Mentally, my mind is clear and unburdened. Emotionally, I feel safe, loved, secure. I'm about to get high and eat homemade peanut butter/chocolate fudge brownies (that alone is cause for celebration), and tomorrow I don't have to get up early! All in all, It's been a pretty great day.

I woke up in such a foul mood. I had trouble falling asleep last night, and even after I did, I kept waking up to check the time. The same thing I did the night before. I don't know what's up with that. I procrastinated to the point where I had no choice but to get up or be late, and I've been doing really well about being to work on time. I'm not sure what changed between getting up and getting to work, but by the time the store opened I was feeling energetic and ready to engage with customers. Not generally how I feel in the morning. Sales weren't great, but it didn't matter. I'm not worried about it. It doesn't do me any good to.

Keenan's birthday's in a couple days, and since I close tomorrow (and didn't want to leave everything until the day before), I got the rest of my shopping done after work. Something I always feel when shopping for the kids' birthdays is that I never get them enough or good enough gifts. I wish money wasn't an object, so I could get them any and everything their hearts desire, but that isn't the case. It's a thing, and we'll never feel like we have enough of it. Even so, I really feel like I did a good job for him this year. I got him some really good stuff (like a remote control ATV, a color changing lantern for his room, the dance classes he's been asking about for almost a year, books, Hot Wheels, and a few other things). I'm trying to be more thoughtful about what I give the kids. I want less meaningless clutter they're going to forget about in a month, and more things they can truly appreciate. Also, experiences. Like Annie's concert and Keenan's lessons. I've still yet to uncover what Kiki would be interested in, but I will. Those are the kids of things I want for them. Something I didn't get a whole lot of. Life experience.

There's not much else to say about today. I'm in a good place, and I'm thankful for that. The only thing I can hope for is more days like this...




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