rainy

My heart in a knot
2016-06-08 19:26:19 (UTC)

The tree.

I'm kind of feeling dazed right now, if you can imagine what I'm about to say then you are correct, it was another bad day at work. I'm just at the point where I want to leave this job and put it all behind me as if it never happened.

Today in particular was bad because I got into an accident with the company vehicle, I hit a tree. It broke the mirror on the side but that was it. Well it turned into a complete mess after I reported it, but they didn't fire me for it. I need time away from this job, I think that is what caused me to miss the tree and not see it, my head just needs to rest and I need to rejuvenate, I need a vacation. To be honest I kind of had hoped this would be how I went, I'd rather of had lost the job over hitting the tree than something else. I really do wish TT was still there but today I saw little reminiscences of her that I didn't notice before. A tray with her name on it as well as a tape dispenser. These little things are reminders that she once dominated the area...they were mentioning her today as well but I couldn't tell what they were talking about.


My study session didn't go well tonight because although I sat down and tried to focus on it I couldn't. Even this entry isn't going the way I need it to, everything is just a huge mess.


Tomorrow they are sending me to a different store, I guess because they need to do an investigation on how I hit the tree, that and all of my coworkers have been giving me looks like I'm the most bungle person... I just think I'm not made for this job or this kind of work, but I took the job because I don't have experience in my intended area of work.

Here's what I'm going to do.. I'm going to get some sleep tonight and try to lower my stress levels then hopefully things start to improve and I can come back and write this the way wanted to.




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