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My Life Thus Far
2016-05-21 05:38:25 (UTC)

To Have Just Enough

I'm exhausted. I don't normally feel as tired as I felt today. That concerns me. Because every time I feel extra tired or run down, I think it's my iron levels, and I fear infusions. I've done so well keeping my iron levels up, I really don't want to end up anemic again. It's always in the back of my mind. So, I'm going to get a good night's sleep tonight and hope that's all it is. Snookums didn't sleep well last night, which kept me up, and my hip was bothering me. That alone affected my sleep (tossing and turning), but add Snookums digging into a Cheese Nips box, and my sleep was definitely interrupted.

I begrudgingly went into work early, only to find out Kim only asked me to come in early because she needed to prep for a conference call at 9am. Seriously? Nobody comes in that early for a merch call. I was a little irritated. Especially since it mean I had to spend 30 minutes digging through mixed boxes of sale merchandise to fill sale walls. I fucking hate sale, and I hate Kim telling me what to do even more. I need to work on my attitude when it comes to this. By noon I was in a less than positive mood. I got some coffee on my break, and that helped, but part of it had to be due to crappy sleep.

I did the bulk of my shopping for Annie's birthday and the work baby shower I have (both on Sunday). I'm always so relieved when all the birthdays are behind me. Kids are so expensive, and to add 3 more babies into the mix makes me a little stressed. I don't really desire to be rich, but man it would be nice to have just enough. To have everything covered without always finagling, hustling. I know my kids are happy, I just long to give them so much more. Not necessarily stuff, but experiences. I long to show them the world, but I just can't afford it.

I got to spend some quality time with the little ones. Annie was out with friends, but Kiki and Keenan were excited to hang out with me! We went to Battle Point Park so they could play. Once they were done, we walked the trail and fed the ducks some bread. The resident mating pair have 5 adorable ducklings! We went to the opposite side of the park where there had been a second pond, but it's dried up for the season. No ducks, but there were plenty of geese! So, the kids fed the remaining bread to the geese. They had a great time, and I enjoyed hanging out with them.

I need to smoke and sleep. I'm so done. Goodnight.




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