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My Life Thus Far
2016-05-08 08:04:13 (UTC)

Flawed Spirituality

My official review on Girl Scout Cookies (my new strain) will be an A . Last night was one of the best nights I've had in awhile. I felt very relaxed, pain free, and I fell asleep and stayed asleep so easily! Of course I wasn't excited about getting up, but when I did there was no great amount of pain or nausea. No desire to cry, like I wanted to yesterday morning. So, I'm recreating the same scenario tonight. I've taken two hits to take the edge off, the I'll take two more when I'm ready to settle in for bed.

I had my first good day this month at work today. For whatever reason I haven't been too terribly concerned with my performance this past week. It's not that I haven't been doing my best, it's just been so slow. Too slow to make my inflated sales goals. I'm sure I'll make it up somewhere down the line. I'm down $2,000 (I've easily doubled that, so I know it can be done), and yet even if I don't I'm still not too concerned about it. It's whatever.

We had a fun little family outing this evening. We took the kids to Bainbridge Island to play on the beach at Fay Bainbridge, but when we got there the place was PACKED, and the wind on that side of the island was gale force (a small craft advisory was in affect). So, we went to the south end of the island by the ferry to hang out instead. We got dinner at Town and Country Market (basically a Central Market. They're owned by the same company), then went to the waterfront park to eat, play, and go for a little walk. It was lovely. We headed home a little early, so Snookums could get to bed a little earlier tonight. He works early tomorrow, and has plans for me for Mother's Day. He won't tell me what, but he keeps chuckling about it.

I took a nice, long, hot bath when we got home. I think that's another factor behind my increased back and hip pain. I haven't been taking my Epsom salt baths quite as often since dad's been here. I don't even know why. I guess part of me feels like I should be hanging out with him as much as possible. I can't seem to get into a normal groove, even a month later. I frustrate myself. Anyhow, my bath was divine. Snookums shaved and showered while I soaked, and we finished around the same time, ready for bed before 10pm.

Since we had the time, we had sex. Romantic, I know. I can't even remember the last time we did it. It felt like the first week dad was here, it was every other day. That tapered off real quick. I guess whatever turn on Snookums felt about having sex with me with my dad in the house wore off. Which is fine. I found it a little weird, anyway. Not super weird, just a teeny bit. It felt so good. Probably because I've been wanting it for a few days, but by evening it gets put off. The anticipation was half the enjoyment.

I'm getting to the point where I feel like I'm ready for another break from Facebook. Not because I got into a cyber brawl with anyone. I'm just so sick of the part time job managing Facebook has become. All the friend requests, messages (all day and all night), and responding to posts constantly is making me feel overwhelmed. I can't keep up with everyone, nor do I really want to. I have over 3,000 friends and I really only feel connected to maybe 400 of them. If that. A large number of that estimate would be people I'd keep around for sentimental reasons.

Dad posted this meme about blessing animals after you slaughter them and cooking them "beautifully" to honor the animals life. It was the most disturbing attempt at flawed spirituality I've read in awhile. I'm sure he wouldn't even see that if I tried explaining it. So, I won't. He's too far gone to be swayed, and I'm not wasting my energy trying. It would just frustrate me. I'm sorry, but animals don't give a shit if you "honor" them, anymore than a human would want to be killed after you promise to honor them. It doesn't work that way. Animals don't want to be slaughtered. Any other argument is plain stupid. Even if you love meat, you can't believe animals want to be killed. Would dogs or cats? No. So, why pigs and chickens? This isn't rocket science, yet too many people are stuck in their own selfish desires. They can't see it for what it is. And I'm not going to be the one that badgers them into enlightenment.

I think I'm going to go hiking tomorrow while Snookums is at work... Or I'll sleep in, read, and look forward to Snookums surprise. I guess it depends on how well I sleep.




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