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My Life Thus Far
2016-05-01 07:12:35 (UTC)

The Hormonal Rollercoaster

My motivation to get this entry done is a pint of peanut butter cookie ice cream. Thank you Ben and Jerry's for finally getting on board with the vegan ice cream. It's better than some of the non-vegan ice creams I've had in the past. But enough about vegan ice cream...

My period started this morning, and almost like clockwork, the hormonal rollercoaster is coming to a stop. I hate how volatile I feel at times. I wish I could end menstruation all-together, but doing something as drastic as an ablation makes me sad. Even if I never have another baby, I don't know if I'm ready to give up the ability to just yet. It's stupid to feel this way when I've got 3 amazing kids, one of which is approaching adulthood, but I do. I'll drop this subject, since it makes me a little sad to think about the baby I wanted so much but was taken from me. I'm over it, I guess, but it still hurts and probably always will.

I had a short closing shift tonight, and honestly it felt like the fastest day at work ever. I don't think I looked at the time more than twice. Once when I went on my break, and after we closed (and still had customers in the store). Today was also the last day of the fiscal month. I checked Blueday and I'd made my month with room to spare, but then I had a really bad night (it was so dead), so it's possible I'll be cutting it close. I don't even care. I'm not sure what I care about at the moment, but work isn't one of them.

Dad posted on Facebook that he got the job he applied for working for a fishing company in Alaska. It's bittersweet thinking he'll be leaving, but then again I know he's ready to head out on a new adventure. I don't know when he'll be reporting. Or when he'll be coming back. I didn't talk to him at all today. He left with Annie this morning, and was watching a movie when I got home from work. I'm sure we'll have a chance to catch up on all that tomorrow when I get home.




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