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My Life Thus Far
2016-03-26 07:14:07 (UTC)

Like Water Off A Duck's Back

Manifesting my own destiny is working out very well for me. Accepting life for what it is, in that moment, and not expecting more or less has really helped me find a place of peace even in moments that are uncomfortable or otherwise unpleasant. Like this morning at work. I accepted I was there, I had to be there, and even though I encountered one bitchy customer after another, I didn't internalize or let their negative energy get to me. It rolled off like water off a duck's back. For whatever reason, sales just weren't happening for me despite doing all the successful behaviors I always do. I didn't let that get to me, either. In the grand scheme of life, it doesn't matter all that much. I'm happier when I accept that.

I felt pretty good after work. The slump didn't hit today, even though I walked an impressive 13,100 steps today. The most my phone has clocked since I enabled S Health. This was a good thing, because as soon as I got home and kicked my shoes off, Gen texted me and asked if I'd come keep her company while she wrote her dad's eulogy. Of course I said yes. I can't even imagine how she must be feeling right now. One thing I've taken away from watching her go through this, is that I am and should be grateful I still have my dad, and in just a matter of a week or so, he'll be here so I can get to know him better, and so my children can make memories with him. We never really know how much time we have left. So, I'm going to cherish the moments I have with not just my dad, but everyone. We may lose sight of our mortality, but it's there. Ever looming

In between brainstorming ways of eulogizing a person who left little great qualities to share, we had some really great dialogue about our friendship, and feelings for one another. Essentially clearing the hurt and confusion of yesterday. It was cathartic and much-needed. By the time we parted ways, I think we both felt a little better, although tomorrow is a whole 'nother story. It's going to be emotional, but also cathartic. Obviously more so for Gen than me.




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