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My Life Thus Far
2016-03-19 06:32:42 (UTC)

I Want To Be Myself Again

Day 5 with no voice: I left work early, because by 1pm it gave out completely. And since there's no way I will ever recover if I keep taxing it like this, I preemptively took a sick day tomorrow. There's no way I'll be able to get through my entire shift on a Saturday, if I couldn't do it once this week. I don't even feel the slightest bit bad about it. I deserve time to recover. Not to mention, not being able to talk is severely affecting my ability to sell and help customers. My SPAH is plummeting with 3 bad days in a row. Yet, I don't even really care about that. I just want my voice back. I want to tell my kids I love them, I want to sing. I want to be myself again.

My extensive Google capabilities have led me to the diagnosis of viral laryngitis brought on by seasonal allergies. I don't have the other symptoms that would point to a cold or flu triggering this. I almost wish it was just a cold. That lasts a few days and moves on. Allergies are with me for many weeks, depending on whatever pollen it is affecting me. I suspect its the thick green stuff that's coating every flat surface at the moment. I think it's the evergreen trees, but I'm not totally sure. I know it's making me wish I was in Hawaii (or anywhere else) right now. As much as I love my state, this blows. Hard.

I left work at 1:30pm this afternoon. I was supposed to be off at 3:30pm, but Kaitlin came in at 1:30pm, so there was really no need for me to hang on any longer. Man, I'm so glad I had the courage to take tomorrow off too. I haven't been sleeping well, either. So I need sleep and vocal rest. I'm getting better if it kills me, damn it! Snookums texted me before I left work saying he wanted to go to a park to help blow off steam after his finals, so when I left work I came straight home. We ended up waiting until the kids came home, so they could come with us.

When I got home, I laid down with Snookums and took a short nap on his shoulder while he played a game on his phone. Then, he gave me a bowl of the spaghetti I made a few days ago (at 4pm when I allow myself cooked foods). Soon after that, the kids came home and we headed to Point No Point. We've been there a thousand times, but it's still one of our favorite beaches. It's sandy and wide open. We just strolled and picked up sea shells, then watched the sun set. It was a lovely evening.

My back and legs are sore from yesterday's hike, so when I got home I took an Epsom salt bath (with olive oil and lavender lemongrass bath tea). It felt lovely, with scalding hot water, and all my candles lit. I didn't stay in very long, because I am tired. So, now I'll be signing off so I can eat some Might-O donuts and go to bed! I'm so ready to feel better. So ready...




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