Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2016-03-07 09:50:38 (UTC)

Pretend It Didn't Happen

I really wish I had a vegan friend or two. I'm currently feeling like I want to take a break from Facebook (again), but if I do then I'll be completely isolated from anyone who holds any of my same beliefs. I live in a world where literally no one identifies with me. I'm some kind of jacked up unicorn. Unique and different, mystifying to most, annoying to many, ultimately misunderstood and unappreciated. It doesn't help that it feels like people are constantly taking jabs at me. Making fun of who I am and what I deem important and worthwhile. It's fucking annoying. In a world where everything I hate is constantly thrown in my face, I'm the one who's pushing my beliefs down people's throats. It's enough to make me want to check out of society. I'm having a hard time understanding why people can't see what's really going on. I process this well usually, but today I'm struggling. Humanity is comprised of largely egocentric, speciesist, racist, misguided individuals who are only concerned with what feels and tastes good to them. Fuck everyone else. I don't have the patience today.

Despite not wanting to get out of bed, procrastinating getting ready, and making myself late to work, I had a good day. It was busy enough to make the day go by, but nothing too crazy. Accepting my situation and not thinking too much about it is helping me be happier. If you can call it happier. Or I have some work-related version of Stockholm Syndrome and have accepted I'm going to be working this job forever. It's repetitive, robotic, and the same shit everyday. I don't need to read too much into it or overthink it.

On my way out of work, I somehow managed to slip and fall. I banged up my knee and broke my mason jars (that I bring smoothies to work in). Usually I would have been mortified that people saw me in a less than flattering situation, but for whatever reason I didn't even care. One woman asked if I was okay, but for the most part people just pretended they didn't see it happen. I guess that's an accurate representation of how society reacts to everything uncomfortable. Pretend it didn't happen. Look the other way. Anything, but face the problem.

Snookums took me out for Thai, which was the highlight of my entire day. We went to Bahn Thai in Silverdale. We'd been there one time before. Our 2 month anniversary over 12 years ago. I have no idea why we haven't been back. I think maybe because only recently have we developed a taste for Thai. All those years ago, we lived on the standard American diet. Anyway, it was great! Almost everything on the menu could be made vegan. There was an option of adding tofu or mixed vegetables instead of a meat. I had the spicy orange tofu with basmati rice, and green tea. They have the coolest booths that you have to crawl into, and sit lotus style. I can't wait to go back again!

I plan on sleeping long and hard tonight. I'm feeling a little sore from my fall. I took an Epsom salt bath, and now I shall smoke and sleep. There's not much that feels better than not having to set an alarm for the morning.




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