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My Life Thus Far
2016-03-01 05:47:08 (UTC)

1,000 Friends

It was a fun day off! A complete 180 from the type of things I do on most days off. I didn't hang out in bed, watching a crime show marathon (Law and Order, NCIS, Criminal Minds, etc.). I didn't go to the gym (although I did get in a fair amount of walking). I didn't go hiking (it would have been a decent day for it, but we had other plans). Instead, we drove to Tacoma so I could go to LUSH and a bigger Sephora (ours is inside JC Penney's and it's tiny. Usually sold out of what I want. It never fails). I love LUSH bath bombs. This is no secret. I also needed another Dirty bar (the most insanely lovely mint chocolate scented massage oil bar). And I needed more of my signature black liquid liner, and my Bare Minerals tinted face cream. I knew exactly what I needed, but we still wandered a little, too.

Keenan woke up coughing and snotty. Instead of giving him his allergy medicine like I told him to yesterday, Snookums let him stay home. So, of course once I realized what was going on, I gave Keeny his medicine. His allergies are fairly severe and no amount of natural remedies has helped. He has to take Allegra. So I gave it to him, and of course he was fine within half an hour. Instead of making him go to school, since daddy had already let him stay home, we took him with us. He got a little field trip today. Of course now that means Kiki is going to have to get a special day with us at some point. Those two insist that everything always be 100% fair between them. Keenan picked out a Build-a-Bear doll for her and everything, just to make up for getting to go with us without her. Kiki wasn't impressed. She's not interested in stuffed animals anymore apparently. Neither is Keenan. He didn't want to make one at all. What's happened to my small babies who LOVED Build-a-Bear more than anything a couple years ago? They're growing up.

I surpassed 1,000 friends on Facebook today, which is INSANE to me. I remember in the past wondering how my friends with so many friends got to that point. I know how I did it (vegans. All the vegans), but how does the average person do it? It must have something to do with being social. Or popular. Neither of which I am. Virtual friendships are all I'm interested in. I have a hard enough time fostering real friendships and maintaining them. Gen understands. Not too many other people do. If you aren't always calling or texting, wanting to hang out, then you're not a good friend. I would do literally anything I could for anyone who asked me, but that's just it. You gotta ask. I'm not a mind reader. I don't take hints (well, I can. I choose not to). Ask me for help and I'll do what I can. I mean that wholeheartedly. But if it's just attention you seek, I'm not the one for that. I don't ask for attention. I'm not sure how to engage with those that do.

My back is angry right now. I'm sure it was due to all the walking we did, carrying bags and my heavy purse (I really need to do something about that. Like, clean it out). Crawling into bed felt amazing. Feels amazing! I'm writing a little earlier tonight in the hopes that I fall asleep earlier. I open the next two days, and I almost never get enough sleep on days I open. I love getting off early, hate getting up early. It's a personal struggle for me.

These next two days of work I'm going to do my best to be positive, upbeat, optimistic, and focused. Even if I'm not totally happy at work, I have to do the best I can to make it both bearable for myself, and a positive experience for the people I encounter (customers and coworkers). My performance suffers when I'm in a bad mood. There's no denying that. There's no one to blame for it. It's on me, and I know that. So this is my mantra. "Life is only as good as you make it". I know I've gotten this saying from somewhere. I can't remember where, but it's true. I control how I feel about what's going on around me. And I'm choosing resilience. I deserve happiness, and I'm the one who controls whether or not I manifest that happiness. It's that simple. This is all on me.




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