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My Life Thus Far
2016-02-17 08:43:29 (UTC)

Now's Not The Best Time

I'm trying very hard to be okay with the fact that I missed a day writing. After getting about 3 hours of sleep Sunday night, then opening Monday morning, I was so exhausted by the time I got home Monday evening, I just passed out. I'm pretty sure I fell asleep around 6:30-7pm. I kind of expected Snookums to wake me up at some point (he knows if I nap too late, I won't sleep that night), but he didn't. He said he came to bed a little after 8pm and I was out cold. So, I didn't write. There wasn't much to say about Monday, anyway. Other than the fact that I made an attempt at being more positive at work, and it paid off. I had a decent day.

This morning (because I went to bed so early) I was awake by 5am. Being awake and being productive are two very different things. And being productive at 5am just isn't something I'm interested in. I scrolled Facebook and got lost in various online articles. Eventually I convinced myself it would be a good idea to get up and eat. I was getting super hungry, and when I get too hungry I start thinking about things I don't really want to eat. Usually of a sugary (cookies), fatty (French fries), rich (pizza) variety. This morning the fantasy of scrambling up an entire block of tofu crossed my mind. And hashbrowns. But I'm trying to adhere to a high raw vegan diet. That means lots of fruits and vegetables in their most natural state. So, I sucked it up and made myself a nice smoothie, and I cut up a couple mangoes I got from Central a couple days ago. They tasted so fucking good (I added fucking for emphasis. They tasted that good)! After breakfast, I felt like I could go on with life. I dressed for the gym and left the house in a fantastic mood.

My plan for the day was to go to the gym and get in a solid workout, then Costco for smoothie fruit, then home to hang out with the kids. The plan changed half way through my workout. While on the weighted leg press, I got a text from Sara to call work. Because I'm a complete and total push-over when it comes to Sara, I ended up going into work to help recover. She found out today that Laura (our DM who hates me) and Erik (our loss prevention manager) will be coming first thing tomorrow. There's usually a recovery team scheduled for DM visits, but since it was such short notice, it was an all hands on deck situation. Like I'm always reminding myself, it's never as bad as it seems. I had fun messing around with my coworkers. Day 2 of having a more optimistic outlook about work is paying off. I have to trust the process and keep trying. After looking at some of the job prospects in this area, it's feeling like now's not the best time to alienate myself from my steady job. Plus, I looked at next week's schedule and my hours are back to normal. Perhaps crisis averted?

I still made it to Costco. I left the gym a little earlier than I'd planned, because I really did need more frozen fruit. I also got a huge tub of coconut oil on sale for $15! Usually a tiny jar costs $10, but I got I think a gallon sized pail. I wonder how long that will last me? A month or two, tops.

I should be sleeping right now. If I go to sleep soon, I'll get about 5 hours. Not great, but it could be worse. Then I have 3 whole days off. In a row! I hope the weather is nice. I'd love to do a couple hikes.




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