Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2016-02-09 07:00:30 (UTC)

I'm The Only One I Know

I went into work this morning already set in my mind that whatever happened I wouldn't let it get to me. I succeeded. I had a shitty sales day, but it's whatever. It was slow. I did my best. I have to be okay with that. It doesn't help my situation when every other day one of the vegans in any one of the dozens of groups I'm in goes on an anti-VS bashing spree. I think a huge part of my problem is that I'm coming to the realization that where I work goes against my values. It sucks. But then again, it's completely unrealistic to expect every vegan to have a vegan job. There just aren't enough of them to go around. And I'm pretty sure none in Kitsap County. But I'm sure I can at least find something that doesn't involve working for a company that started testing on animals the same time I decided I'm against animal testing. The timing couldn't have been any worse.

Completely on a whim, I asked a friend out for coffee yesterday! We met up today when I got off work. Kerry and I used to work together at the Y years ago. She used to host a weight loss/healthy living support group at her home at that time, every Thursday evening. The group ended up disbanding when her husband decided he wanted a divorce and she had to sell the house. We've remained friends over the years, but don't see one another much. It's been almost a year since we last met up. We met at Starbucks and just sat and chatted for awhile. It was really nice how we just picked up where we left off. It wasn't weird, and it certainly didn't feel like it had been a year since our last get-together. We promised not to go so long before seeing each other again. We'll see if that actually happens.

After parting ways with Kerry, I felt really exhausted and almost unwell. I could feel the beginnings of a headache coming on. It's weird how social interactions can leave me feeling so drained. Like I can't recharge until I'm finally alone again. So I sat in my car in the Starbucks parking lot, listening to music and drinking water. For over an hour. Sometimes I feel like such an oddball. How many people need to be alone for an hour after socializing with a friend before they can go to the grocery store? I'm sure millions, but I'm the only one I know.

Snookums requested chili for dinner. I have to hand it to myself, I've gotten really good at making vegan chili. Each batch is better than the last. Even though it tasted good, I still didn't feel like eating much. I probably ate half a cup of it. I did manage to have a couple pieces of toast with it, so it was more of a meal than I've had in days. I'm still not loving food very much. I took a smoothie to work and that was breakfast and lunch. I didn't feel hungry until I started smelling the chili cooking. Honestly, I'm feeling more light and energetic now that I'm eating less, working out, and back on my smoothies. Now I just need to get my back fixed!




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