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My Life Thus Far
2016-01-22 07:06:26 (UTC)

My Annual Health Crisis

I had the MRI this morning, and really it left me with more questions than answers. It was a little more unnerving than I thought it would be, too. I'm not generally a fearful person, but I did panic a little when I got placed in the tube. I managed to talk myself down, and I went through with it. Aside from being really loud, it wasn't too bad.

And now the results: more confusion than anything else. My back doesn't look too bad. There's some degeneration that's pressing on my spine, but the nerves aren't in as bad a shape as we thought they might be. The radiologist thinks a cortisone shot should resolve the issue (maybe temporarily, maybe long term, that's not going to be immediately clear. Only time will tell). The curve ball thrown at me came when he told me there's some inflammation, possibly infection in my right hip bone. In the joint. I can see the MRI screen in my head, lit up white (which is the inflammation) where the involved areas are. I don't know what it means. I don't know how it will be treated. I don't know anything. I'm just waiting to hear back from my doctor. All I know is, it isn't fair that I'm living with a level of pain no one would consider reasonable. I just want it to be over.

My days off are over. I go back to work tomorrow at 10am. I love time off from work, but not when it's spent being broken. I keep thinking about the hiking I wanted to do, and the time in the gym I'm missing out on. My back has almost gotten back to the level of pain I'm used to enduring, so I'll be getting back into the swing of things within the next day or two. I think it's in my best interest to get in better shape. It definitely can't hurt. Well, it could, but I'll take that chance.

Speaking of getting in shape. I happened to end up watching one of those weight loss competition shows for a little bit tonight. My Diet Is Better Than Your Diet, I think it was called. I can't help but think every time I watch shows like that how inherently flawed they are. Anyone can lose a boatload of weight and get in shape when they've got a professional following them around. Cooking for them. Shopping for them. Guiding them through perfectly tailored workouts. It's such a let down to millions of people struggling on their own to lose weight or get in shape. At least I know what to do. I just need to do it.

After getting home from my appointment, I sat around thinking about how much I long for a pain free, regular life. I'm getting so close to getting life where I want it to be. Getting rid of this nagging pain is pretty much the only thing hindering me from living my best life. I'll consider this my annual health crisis, because after this I'm confident I'll be good as new and free from ailments!




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